new year blast

A new year inspires us to change something ,

this year bring me lot of fun n joy, oso realise me a lot about life;family is evrything,

Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate...not all thing we want we get,

we need to be struggle to achieve something.I have always struggled to achieve excellence.everyone does same thing* One thing that cycling has taught me is that if you can achieve something without a struggle it's not going to be satisfying.

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts,

The great recipe for success is to work, and always work.

Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments

my target 2012 :::

get new success and many new reasons to smile, Lose weight ( target BMI 19) ,

Give more to charity. Be a good muslimah. Be a good doctor. Be a good daughter.

be nice to friends and other people.go through the hardship of HO life..

Mend relationships,ready for a relationship?? ( ermm i will think about it later..aha!) ,

Saving money.Get my own car. Get a new phone. learn a lots of thing. Be confident. Be vise. Hardworking. be mature. the time is everything, dun be procrastinate

etc!!!!

last night..we hv BBQ wif all ex-brimobs n other frens

(exp qurr, na , syira je xde)

we will gonna miss u soon^__^wish u success, happiness n joy ~~!

friendship forever!

n make me realized da 5 tahun kat sni n we will left medan soon wif a lots of memories...

sdey sgt..^__^ tp happy nak balik mesia..

diz year gonna be tough year..

my graduation will be in february.

then i will go back for good n being a DOCTOR (scary aite)

personally, I was not that agitated about it.

I think it's because I really am grateful about my life on a daily basis.

I love what I do and the people I work with.

Medicine is a stressful job for anyone.

doctors are often dealing with difficult people who are sick,

they are seeing people when they aren't at their best, obviously.

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

Allah knows what is the best for His servants.

If it's your true passion to become a doctor

then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end.

It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.

i hope i will have fun with my jobs

Special memories of all the yesterdays.

A bright today with much to be thankful for.

A path that leads to beautiful tomorrows.

happy new year

wutttt??????????

lepas satu2 masalah..

**xstress langsung !!**

masalah wisuda xsetel2 lg...

tarikh pn xconfrim..awl bln 2 laa..then tup2 dgr lak ura2 akhir bulan 2..

wehhh leh x ko fix tarikh btul..xprofesional lgsg!! * sbr je la !*

mslh nak beli tiket lg...igt beli dgn daun ke??

result ...

rumah...perabot2..baju2..bku2...

motor...

thennn....
bru je dapat msg dr kawan di FB,,,,

after diz TPM akan dikuat kuasakan...

yep cabaran makin sengit...

n menakutkan...

i know u can do it amy...

kalo org lain ,u pon boleh !!!

**fighting **!!!

point of no return

Marshmallow =p

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

People change so that you can learn to let go,

things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

Memories fade away,

"Everything in your life happens for a reason. You may not understand why but someday you will."

i wanted to write. but, it will be like the past all over again.

there's no point writing it anymore.

no point typing it out.

it will be just another silly excuses, ending up nothing. bullshit.

no more bullshit .

no more excuses,

scumptious_marshmallow

dia.mereka.saya.

sapu-sapu habuk kat blog bersawang labah2.

baru lepas panas enjin nak study.tp xde mood plak bler pkir esok ada oncall.huu.belum kemas2 lagi. oncall di obstetric and gynaecology dept pertiga hari n sangat2 xsabar nak habis clinical cepat2. sambil tggu water heater panaskan air...visit my blog yg brsawang neh. org wat blog, die nak blog jugak...hahhaha itu laa..remaja! eceh.

walaupun sibuk..sibuk ke? sempat jugak ak ngan kawan2 p tgk breaking down pas marghrib tadi. ni la "mak kasi duet suh blaja, kome p tgk wayang ye!"..hahahha.

yea, review. cter best, ade gak part censored* eh byk*, * jgn bawak dak kecik ok*, jalan cter menarik, jacob handsome, edward cool n sweet ..hahahha.. n sampai trpkse la sy kne p tgk utk part 2 nanty.ugh kejam laa wat part 1 n 2...! tgk wayang untuk cuci2 mate n untuk semangat study, balik hampeh. ngantuk lg.

tapi ade part yg ak plg sedey smpai nak nanges, mase ayah dia tgk bella nak kawen.hntr bella ke edward. n masa nak lepaskan bella pegi. msti mase tu naluri sorg ayh nak lepaskan anak dara die pegi. ugh masa tu jugak ak rindu kat my dad.if he could see me grown up n mature ,

i remembered when i was 9 years old, i follow my dad, dia p tlg deliver seekor lembu dengan intrauterine death, kesian lembu tu...n masa balik rumah

my dad asked me "amy nak jadi doktor haiwan macam ayah x?"

..then i was yelling.." x nak, lembu busuk, ade taik, n ade ekor kibas2". * mase tu mati2 ak igt keje veterinar tu merawat lembu je*

then my dad laugh.."haha, bila la anak ayah nak mature...xpe nanti besar amy janji jaga ayah n mak nnti kami da tua nanti yea.".* sambil dia usap2 kapla sy..

.then i angguk-angguk tanda paham.. ***moment tu ,sampai tu je sy igt***

yea, u can't even see mature or grown up, dad....=.= i really really miss u

i want to make u proud, n be a good daughter. i'm so sorry for everything i have done.

be thankful ^_^

Be thankful and stop comparing Be thankful that you don't already have

everything you desire. If you did,

what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something,

for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.

During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations,

because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge,

because it will build your strength and character.Be thankful for your mistakes.

They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary,

because it means you've made a differenceBe thankful for who you are, despite of how you looK, be thankful for what you have as Allah SWT has given you what is best for you, be thankful and stop comparing yourself with what other people have and feel enough with what you have will make you the richest person on earth..

Stop focusing on the physical (the look) and start perfecting your heart (manners). Thenyou will result in tranquility, trust me.. It's great to receive a neutral point of view for a change. Thank you again

what change u?

Someone once told me that

“knowledge is power and is no weight to carry around”

and I now know that to be true.

i'm just read an article at RD.." The wall that change me" written by ex-prisoner, who came back from a place that buried him alive, re-new his life in better way n more meaningful.

click diz: http://www.rdasia.com/the-walls-that-changed-me

When you set out with a plan in life and it doesn’t go quite right, it’s because God has a better plan for you. I always try to remember that.

stupido loser kiddy

Never regret of what i was doing now, Medical Students…

Isn’t this your school-age AMBITION?

Yer cikgu, saye nak jadi dokter. Saye nak bantu orang sakit.*wth!!*

Wasn’t that your kiddy answer?

Yes, you wanted to be here. Yes you are.

Think! Think back. Its not easy to get you here. Yes, here. How many years had you struggled to get you in this profession. You are now half-step distance to become a doctor. Never turn back.

I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah.

Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.

:)amypeMalasMmGnaKknEleMpang!!

i don't know where my motivation recently..myb it stop somewhere..i wanna callin it back...

hello !! hello !! i nak jd rajen n bersemangat macam waktu kanak2 rebina n muda dulu kala...hahahhaa...cepat datang mood sy..hehe***

Never let negative thought under estimate yourself, your capability. just let go wut people say negative to u, see in positive way. *..just ignored wut people say about u..or under estimate u.let it go..yg penting, u know wut u do, ur capability, n ur willingness..coz u know who u're..".. If other doctors who can do it, why not you? WHY NOT YOU? Of course there is NO SHORTCUT to be one. A specialist, supervisor, consultant. You think it is easy to become one? They also had struggled through tough years to be one. Yes.

But don't you think that the professional doctors were also a 'small/young doctor' before? =) Nobody can become professional straight away..it all requires practices and experiences..so, why don't dis people support us. i have my own motivate why i'm being here and hv my own reason why..i never told anybody, it always be my secret n it always be..* papa, amy tau amy BOLEH..it's not your dream anymore, it's mine..*

Every king was once a weak baby, and every awesome building was once just a drawing on a piece of paper. And you? THINK!

Jadi dokter, satu pekerjaan yang mulia. Yes, doctors playing God. But yet, everything happen dengan IzinNya. Saving lives, isn’t that mulia? Imagine you save someone’s life or making someone to have a better quality of life. And that person able to beribadat and do good things because you’ve helped that person. Don’t you think “saham pahala” gets to you? Allah knows.

take time to think !!!!

.So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile.Success is simple. Do what’s right, the right way, at the right time

power passenger passage

It's been such a long time i don't write..

hello my blog..* huk3..batuk2 sebab banyak habuk n sawang lelabah*

currently at new department .O&G...obstetric n gynaecology =)

let talk about power passage passenger...haha xla..sy newbie lg kt dept nie...

best.best..bestt..best ke??

o&g...o&g...o&g....10 more week to go..caiyok emila!! u can do it ! ^_^ giving it the best. all of the hard work will be worth it in the end..

i just read an article about underestimate people..

i don't like people underestimate me. i'll said *go cermin diri u laa. so u think u'r good enuff 0_o???*

Don't underestimate me. I'll only prove you wrong.

...most other people have under estimated me and gotten bit back hard

That being said, this ^^ can work to your advantage at times, especially in competitions. .When a potential employer or patients or other important figure underestimates you, it's a bad thing, but if the competition underestimates you, that's a major plus. Basically, learn how to impress the people you want to impress.I've always had the same kind of thing happen to me. Then, I figured out that being underestimated is often your greatest advantage if you play your cards right. Don't pass up the chance to use this. ;)

seperti kata our supervisor doctor specilaist obstetric&gynaecology td..smbil bimbingan kasi juge ceramah agama sket..he said dat...." Allah lahirkan kita ke dunia dalam keadaan lemah ( bayi), perlu dijaga, perlu dibagi makan oleh ibu bapa..jadi jangan la sombong, wlpn ilmu hnye secebis da nak sombong...huuu..belajar cm peribahasa padi tu..makin berisi makin tunduk.....n ske juge ayat dia yg last.."blaja laa kalian, saya harap kalian jangan berhenti setakat ini sahaja.saya berharap kalian jadi specialist ..dan sambung belajar...kerana ilmu yang Allah kurniakan itu sangat luas, setiap manusia perlu belajar...."..saya suka doctor yang cmni..sambil sharing2 ilmu..dan bagi nasihat serta semangat juga...xsombong dan bagus...salah satu doctor kesukaan sy !! sy respect beliau ^_^

pose lagik ~~!

pejam celik pejam celik..da 5 thn kt medan neh..

dan sudah 5 thn pose kt medan ..neh last ramadhan kt medan.

Yeah, I know, this Ramadhan will be very different than before.

i will gonna miss my frens here too...

bile teringat balik masa dolu2...pose mmg best..smpai skank pon msh cmtu...

paling kelakar time nak semayang terawih la kan..kami terawih kt rumah je..sbb mls nak pegi surau..we all lbh memilih smyg kt umah wlpn surau dkt..sbb condition lebh conducive kt umah ...

biler tyme beratur saf2 nak solat....me n my housemates sumer tolak2 xmo jadi imam.kelaka2..cam dak kecik.hahha..

then last2 wawa laa akan jd imam..

utk menggelakkan keadaan seperti tu ...so..sumer bende kene undi..

undi turn masak n undi nak jadi imam pon ade hahhaha..

...undi kne kawen dlu ade ke nnty korg ??? hak3 jgn2

today is our first ramadhan...

pagi2 td masa sahur macam biasa adat kt sini..

ade pakcik/ abg sikampling tu kejutkan sahur..

SAHURRR !! SAHUR !!!

terkejut mak aiii tgh mimpi syok td malam...

dengan ketuk2 n gendang berbagai ntah ape laa bising sgt..

tp bgs jugak..harapkan alarm..mmg laa xmgkin ak bgun..

sahur mee goreng yg keyna masak smlm..

puasa arini xterasa sgt..dekat forensic...pegi pmbt pon oke je..

sembang2...bout terawih, read al-quran , solat sunat n witir as well ,

give n send ur "beautiful packaging" to above

sembang nye sembang...ehh bljr x neh..blaja2 smbil ade sampingan .hehhe

then tetibe dapat balik awal arini..

balik then take a nap...

rindu bazar ramadhan...sbb bosan makanan kt cni esp makanan kt kedai...

so puasa ktorg wat turn masak..

dan hari ni juga my turn utk msak..ok..

dr pagi td duk pkir nak masak apa la kt diorg neh..

da la lame giler xmasak kan...huhu..takut la xsedap kan...kne pndai budjet kang trkurang sbb nak masak utk sahur skali ..or trlebih takut membazir..hahahha...byk plak pkir kan...

ak lak kan jd chef , selalunye chef neh ikut taste die..yea semestinye

last2 ak masak Oyster Mushroom with black pepper ,(fried mushroom) mushroom celup tepung , fried chicken, plus dengan air jagung..yummy !!! ehh..biase je...nama je nak keren ..rs biasa je muahhaha..

Hmm.. also thinking of Ramadhan.. I remember my previous one when i was in form 1- form 5.. it was blissful.. I used to walk to the mosque with my grandma n my sister ... and I observed some people, khusyu’ in their prayer, I felt humbled.. and on my way home, looking at the moon, felt so serene and all worries faded away.. Hope this Ramadhan would be even more meaningful, InsyaAllah..

Let us collect as much 'pahala' as we can through ibadah and noble deeds in this month. terawih, read al-quran , solat sunat n witir as well , give n send ur " beautiful packaging" to above. Lailatul qadar should not be wasted. Let's be one from many that meets the day.

Happy fasting everyone, please forgive all of my fault that might be happen between us. May Allah bless us and gives us all the kindness. Lets make this ramadhan our best ramadhan.

May I end by wishing again a peaceful Ramadhan to all.

mashed potatoes~~~

sedang relax abes dept orthopaedic semalam...

then rs kebusanan teramat..

pastu ak layan yes tv..tetibe lak cter masterchef...die buat mashed potatoes..yaa i'm drooling..

teringin lak nak makan..kfc kt cni plak xde mashed potatoes mcm kt mesia .benci btul...

so ak dgn rajennye p swalayan n kedai depan lepas search kt tenet resepi mashed potatoes..yummy ~!!

Mashed Potatoes @ Kentang Putar

Bahan-bahannya:8 - 10 biji kentang (Kupas kulit) dan potong dua : tapi ak gne 3 ketul je potatoes hahaha makan sorg kan...

250gm butter

1 kotak kecil susu segar

serbuk lada hitam (ditumbuk halus)

serbuk lada sulah

neh kte lenyek2 kan kentang tu..tgk tu susu ultra milk high calcium LOW FAT oke !

Cara-caranya

1. Kentang di kupas dan di potong lebih kurang sama saiz. Masukkan dalam periuk dan rebus dengan air yang cukup-cukup menutup kentang. Rebus dlm 20minit.

2. Bila kentang cukup empuk, toskan air dan letakkan semula di atas api supaya lebihan air dapat dikeringkan. Alihkan dari atas api.

3. Masukkan sedikit butter dalam kentang dan leyek (butter tu ikut suka, nak letak lebih ke atau sikit..terpulang pada anda)

4. Season dengan lada sulah dan lada hitam. Jika nak pedas letak lebih.

5. Tuangkan susu dan lenyek lagi hingga rata. (susu ni pun letak ikut sesedap rasa..masuk sikit demi sekit) Susu akan buat mashed potatoes lebih gebu dan lemak.

Gravy @ Sos

Bahan-bahannya:

1 labu bawang besar.

2 ulas bawang putih (ketuk dan chopped)

4 sudu butter

2 sudu tepung jagung

2 cube ayam maggie

lada hitam/sulah

2 cawan air

Cara-caranya

1. Cairkan butter dalam kuali. Tumis bawang. Biarkan dia caramelized. Kasi hangus-hangus sket.

2. Masukkan tepung jagung. Tumis sampai tepung warna coklat. Atau sampai warna gravy yang dikehendaki.

3. Masukkan air. Kacau sampai rata .

4. Pecahkan cube ayam tadi dan masukkan dalam kuah. Masukkan sekali lada hitam dan lada sulah secukup rasa.

5. Kalau kuah terlalu pekat. Tambah air.

6. Kacau rata. Tutup api. Masukkan kuah dalam blender. Blender sampai tak berketul. Hidangkan bersama mashed potatoes.

tadaa!! da siap hehe..xde scoop .biar la xboolat pon kan..hehe

resepi nye senang giler kott..

tp ade gak bahan2 yg xde ak cr..so terpkse laa ak alter skett..hahahha

1st time try buat neh...so xde la enak sgtt..tp tekak ak leh laa telan kan..muhahahhahaha

leh makan n roti utk breakfast n makan malam...so dpt diet...then cukup gizi hahah ye ke??..

best wishes

pak's face just like arwah tok ki...kann

I never thought I would write; I am not one to attend help groups or speak to people I don't know about something that is causing me pain or sad.

Sometimes something comes across me, my mind, like a wave sweeping water across my face and all I can think of is Dad. I get lost in a thought of my Dad, even while in conversation with my friends. but i really miss my dad.

it almost 14 years my dad had past away...n till then i also very closed with my uncle or call him "Pak/ Pok" . he is my mother's brother..he is very kind and though man..just like papa..although he have a wife n 2 daughter , he always taking good care to 4 of us..n came visit us every week. I respect and love my uncle very much, And I respect and listen to him as well.i always remember how he tell us to stand straight up and respect when Negaraku song play..haha yea he is quite disciplined man ( ex-military) and he can play guitar very well n always sing special song for us..4 of us.. i can't say all those word ( sebak ) !!!... I don’t know if I’ve ever told you. But you are as good as my dad .

You are always there. I know that you will always care of us .

2 months ago, my uncle was diagnosed with a cyst which located behind the cervical vetebra, he complained generalized weakness upper n lower limb, headache,, And today ( 23 august 2011) , he had an operation,hope the neurosurgeon was doin well. after 8 hours operation,my sister just message me that he still unconscious ( bcoz of general anesthesia effect after the operation) .. and but my mum was so sad.Then i call my family , just to comfort them. my dad always sad " It's important to let the one you love know that you are there for them do not neglect those that are present & alive in your life that you care about."

pray for the best for my uncle. i hope tommorrow he wake up and smile again. i'm sending my prayers to my uncle..i wish my uncle speedy recovery n Hope to see his smile n hug him for this raya again...

life goes on

Be stroNg n

life goes on..

juz gonna make me strong.. but by d end of d day,i realize..i’m not dat strong after all… I'm trying my best... to put my full trust in Allah. In everything that will face me. The future that I am still very unsure of, and for the many choices that I am trying to make. I can never do it without His help. Do pray for me... to be guided by Allah, now, and always.Verily without Him, we are nothing, nothing at all..

So may Allah protect us from anything bad, and always lead us to right path, every step of the way.

path that i have chosen

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

mungkin ayat tu selalu aku ulang tayang kat status FB. dan ramai kawan2 tanya kenapa i selalu letak ayat tu. atau mungkin mereka menganggarkan ak dah putus asa, ak rasa ak rugi amek medic. ya salah sumer!!.

Walaupun kapla otak ak lahir cam otak math,kalau dulu ak selalu dapat high score utk subject math physic n chemisrty, n biology biasa2 je sbb , malas nak baca. ak xske biology. ak lebih suka add math, physic and chemistry. tapi tak tahu kenapa after matrix ak leh tersasar amek medic.

first year, ak rasa belajar medic senang. asal p lec hall, dengar lecturer kasi kuliah, then balik study sket. Pastu p lab, wat keje sekolah. group discussion . Then ikut case study, pleno pakar. n etc. Final exam, OSCE . so ak xrasa berat sangat.

second year, ak masih rasa belajar tu senang. walaupun ak xpandai sangat, tapi ak suke belajar. Memang senang nak score kat dalam exam, kalo otak anda jenis yg menghafal, sebab soalan dalam exam sebijik dalam lecture notes...pokoknya kalo kau hafal dari tajuk hadapan lecture note sampai noktah terakhir kat lecture note tu CONFIRM ko akan dapat score A dalam exam, tapi ak jenis xsuka menghafal, sbb ak mmg lembab bab hafal2.

3rd year, da rasa stress. banyak mende yang kena recall2. No one expects med students to know everything, or to be able to answer all questions. But when a student is obviously not taking the time to learn about a particular specialty or topic, it really shows. sebab basic lemah, banyak hal kena baca balik. Then dalam tutorial @ case study, macam biasa. tapi best lagi la sebab masih area belajar kt campus lg. so relax n santai. then tetibe kami kne buat KTI (komite tggi indonesia) ehh xde la, tu kire cam penelitian, hurm stress yang amat masa tu nak siapkan mende alah tu before masuk clinical, kire cam campus ugut la, kalo ko tak buat penelitian ko tak boleh masuk clinical or grad, damn !! mesti la kena siapkan , sapa nak jadi mahasiswa sepanjang masa kan, xsanggup ak , ak nak abeskan cepat2. Tapi akhirnya kami dapat siapkan dengan jayanya KTI kami.hahahhahahhaha!! walaupun KTI tuh adalah macam &(%^&*$%. dapat gak ak grad. shhhhhh~~!

Clinical year, ( lower cycle) , rasa macam kuli. seyes rasa macam KULI .supervisor baek, tapi jadi kuli PPDS, kuli nurse. uhuks.act to be interested in visites although i just got my knee hurts when i stand up on it for a long time n got nothing. If you refuse to do the job you're training for, it's time to go.You don´t learn medicine in lectures. You learn it by doing it (* masa tu ak rasa kenapa la ak nak jadi doctor kan.....macam kuli je). Oncall ak rasa cam disaster, sebab kena folkep ( follow ketat) it's mean u need to check BP, and vital sign maybe every per 2 hours or per hour !! okeh, disebabkan masa tu lower cycle, so masih skema, tetiba ak rasa useless. Padahal point yg penting bukan mende alah tu, sepatutnya ak da tahu apa patut ak buat masa tu.( patut la orang kata pengalaman mengajar kita) . Kadang2 rasa best juga, bukan la jadi kuli je, banyak gak ilmu ak dapat sebenarnya, sebab banyak masa belajar dulu kt bangku kuliah ak xpaham sangat ape lecturer ajar, pastu baru ak paham bila dah tengok patient sendiri.

Clinical year upper cycle, then sekarang baru ak paham, doctor is an art. its mean dengan theory yg ko dapat, ko kena apply kat patient tergantung condition. the way u think for the very best for your patients, padahal pola fikir macam nie da ak belajar masa case study dlu...lembab betul ak nak adaptation, dan ak sekarang rasa nak abeskan cepat2 belajar kat sini. sumtimes when clinical rotation being so bored...nothin to do needless to say I was able to get in some quality

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

berbalik pada ayat di atas ini, ya betul. nie jalan yang aku pilih sepatutnya ak xboleh rasa menyesal!! . kalau ak mahu orang hormat ak kenapa ak xjadi hakim je, cth masa hakim masuk dewan pengadilan, sumer orang bangun, doctor pn belajr penat gak 5-6tahun, alih2 kena maki la kena cakap malpraktek laa...... Kenapa doctor masuk clinic sumer orang xbangun pon?? alek2 doctor yang kena p salam2 dengan patient. baikkan doctor. hewhew.
Kenapa?? pulak ak tak pilih jadi engineer or cikgu ke dulu?? tengok kawan2 aku amek cikgu, enginering sekarang da keja , da beli keta honda civic , keta honda jazz, mazda 6, CRV, keta proton saga, oke ak apa yang ada scooter, tu pon da berhabuk kelabu da sebab lama xbasuh, sebab xde masa, n why ak pilih amek medic yang belajar lama, long life learning, kne jd 'KULI" , kena maki, balik2 bangun pagi2, angkat beg sekolah yang berat tu, then start enjin scooter , lari2 sebab lambat ke morning report. Kalau dulu ak pernah terfikir itu adalah beban, sekarang ak rasa tu adalah 1 tanggungjawab. Yang ak perasan, segala jalan yang ak lalui sangat mudah dan smooth dengan pertolongan Allah SWT, ini adalah jalan yang Tuhan bagi pada ak, dan ak perlu bersyukur and I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.have fun with ur jobs , Change your perspective and you will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, your life will be different, the training you recieve like none other. So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile. Ak perlu kuatkan semangat lagi, sebab masih panjang perjalanan hidup neh. Never let negative thought under estimate yourself, your capability. If other doctors who can do it, why not you? WHY NOT YOU? Of course there is NO SHORTCUT to be one. You think it is easy to become one? They also had struggled through tough years to be one. Yes.

although i dun have high ambition, i hv zero think to take any specialities .to me, just nice if i just want to serve my residency at my place when i become a doctor
but i really want to join charity work *luckily it was a good side in me*
through this i can feel there was unlucky people in this world n make me realize i'm so lucky. personally, I was not that agitated about it. I think it's because I really am grateful about my life on a daily basis. I love what I do and the people I work with.Medicine is a stressful job for anyone. doctors are often dealing with difficult people who are sick, they are seeing people when they aren't at their best, obviously. Yes. It's not easy but i'll try my best.

pampering day

everyday just like da same..routinely..wake up, go to shower, breakfast, go to hospital, driving in stressful road in medan,waiting da doctors almost for nuthin, lunch, go back home, sleep, studying, oncall...etc...rotate same thing everyday..n everyday just the same !!

Escape from the daily stresses of life and enjoy a day of pampering ourself at spa.

2 days holidays..i manage my holidays pampered myself. it was so long i not pampering myself at spa.

outing with my bestie, emma n wawa. it was totally awesome! the service was awesome. we did everything from top to toe and definitely felt rejuvenated after the session. but the quality time spent was the most valuable of course and definitely worth every rupee. hehe,.sauna:i need to sit in that small zip compartment n sweating like hell. burn lemak2 n open pore..( i think i gonna buy diz sauna compartment one day) . then, massage ,scrub and cream bath. bestnye kalo de duet, ...sebulan sekali pon oke..hehe..

happy besday Mak !!

You are the best Mom in the world.

I'm so grateful that I have you as a Mom.

Thanks for always believing in me.

Happy birthday to my favorite Mommy.

Thanks for all the support that you have given to me.

Thank you for being such a kind and loving Mother.

When I grow up, I want to be just like you.

Happy birthday to my role model.

It's truly a blessing to have you as a mother.

I'm so glad that God gave me a mother like you.

Happy Birthday Mom.

There is no other Mother like you....

muaxxss!!

tepat jam 12 malam 2 jun 2011 , ak tggu untuk wish my mum birthday

tup2..my sis cakap da tdo..ok laa pagi sok je la.

pagi semalam ak tepon my mum..

amy: assalamualaikum...mak !!

mak: wslm...

amy: happy birthday..

mak: thanks...u number 2 wish kt mak..tp cik ju da tepon first pagi2 td.

amy: alaa.. ishud be da first..tp semalam u tdo awal sgt.

mak: ye ke.

amy: mak da tua da 50 da..hehe

mak: ye laa..anak pon da tuaaa.. , mak da tua tp anak xkawen2 lg..

amy: (aiyak! cepat2 n scr spontan ak tukar topic) , mak masak ape arini??

mak: sje je ..tukar topic...hehe, mak masak nasik kerabu..

amy: waa best nye, bukan lisa n nina ke nak buat? asl mak lak yg masak?

mak: lisa n nina masih tdo lg..mak bgn awl td, mak masak sorg.

amy: ish3, dua org tu, plan nak hebat..last2 mak gak masak..hehe

mak: tu la...makan ape breakfast pg ne? xkeje ke?

amy: cuti....masak nasik lemak reramai..rindu lame xmakan.

n blaa..blaa..bla

miss my mum....]

miss my home..

hibernate

3 days cuti. tapi terpaksa oncall malam.

1st day cuti: xde yang menarek just, tidur, kemas bilik, tido lg....

2nd day cuti: masak2 nasik ayam..yum2..da lamo dapur xberasap...

tadaaaa...best!!

3rd day cuti: period time,not in da mood , ujan, tido, hibernasi, then surfing internet..tertarik pada mask kose seikisho..waaaa cm best jaaa.review nye review..ramai giler gne product neh n oke gak laa...waaa .xsaba nak balik mesia n cr mask neh..nak2!!! NAKKKK Kose Seikisho Mask White !!**wat capital letter nmpk smgt sket kan.. i love looking good, n everyone love looking good too !!

moody =.=

i really love my job

but I feel so trapped here wif all da work n tiredness. according to last night oncall really make me so moody. i dun like the chief.i mean the girl with tahi lalat gedabak kat dahi..i dun like her, she was so rude n last night she just gve me a reason to hate her more! oh plisss!! wish time would move faster!!! ..I don't know what to do...

thanks to my friends terpakse dengar my keluhan2..hehe..sorry to say my mouth xde insurans sket time marah...oh demm!!

I hate that when I am having a hard day.

then i need to tell my myself be patient, jgn cepat mare, coz u r not work for her , i worked for my patients.I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here.Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.i'll have fun with my jobs ,i'll change my perspective and i will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, my life will be different, the training dat i recieve like none other. So if i were going into medicine for the right reasons, i will find the ride worthwhile.

tiredness is a dominant trait now, hate myself for it every single day

I see myself as a lazy person, i cant find anything that motivates me to do what i want, this is a big issue and i need to fix it. I hate being so lazy

i hate evrything which is so hard to me...i hate people who alwiz judge me wrong. why evryone wanna control all my life. ..I feel so miserable here, it doesn't feel like home.I want go back..go back home.

eat

other life goal diet theory..

Eat Breakfast like a king, Lunch like a prince(ss) and Dinner like a beggar. Since I do great all day but fail at dinnertime, does anyone think this is a helpful plan?

it means in the morning your more active so you eat big, afternoon a bit less and evening time a small portion, as it will lie in your stomach all night and wont get work off.

King = carefull if he eat, afraid poison
Prince = neutral
Beggar = can't choose their food.

well that's the theory anyway.

Some people swear by the breakfast for king thing but if it doesn't work for me, then it's absolutely ok to ditch it. Personally, dinner is my favorite meal of the day so I plan to eat my most calories then. I would fail utterly if I had to have a tiny dinner. And it sounds like dinner is when i eat the most too, so if i am also having a huge a breakfast, it's going to be really hard to stay in diz range.

xXXXxxxXXxxx choose??

Hate the thought to choose the which part or negeri shud i choose for HO...i need to think about my mum( kesian my mum nnty sorang2 kt umah..xde org stay kt umah next year..mu sis kt ireland, my bro kt uitm xabes lg, my younger sister oso will go to univ or matrix....),my responsible ( who r goin to accompany my mum, n take care of my mum) , my study (keje kt hospital yg byk case?? yg best??? keje jao2..nnty leh balik teganu lame tyme MO) , my future planning nak keje dekat2 je, saving more money( duk umah lg save money..hee=)). future planning..uhh..hurmm..ughhhh!!! yea i become a mature women talking about diz now...nO!! i shud think about diz NoW!! **byk btul nak kne pkir bler da dewasa neh..aigoooO!!! help me!

Everytime i think of it, i will get a headache. I getting headache often now. Maybe i got too many problem and my head can't take it nor my body can take it further. Can i still carry on. I wonder???????Do people need to break my dreams over and over again. Can't i hope for a bit of dreams coming true and stop blaming me for everything. I so so so so tired of everything. I can really sleep forever if this carry on. I must stand up again. It is still not the time to give up so early. Ok i going to rest soon. haha Gd night to the world out there

homesickoo~~!

I'm sooo homesickoo.

My family is everything to me

miss my mum badly

miss my sisters n bro

miss my home

.

I feel so trapped here wif all da work n tiredness.

I don't know what to do...

I hate that when I am having a hard day with her I can't call and ask my mom to come over.

I hate that I can't sit on my parents front porch anytime. watching television. I want to.

i hate evrything which is so hard to me...i hate people who alwiz judge me wrong. why evryone wanna control all my life. ..I feel so miserable here, it doesn't feel like home.I want go back..go back home.. I was so happy where we used to be and now I just want to cry. Sorry, this is getting a bit much but I just feel so not in da mood today.

i miss him so much

now, it almost 14 years u hv gone to rahmatullah ,every great thing i use to think and see while he was with me is now gone into something i never wanna forget but i can't stand to remember.

he was n is my hero.he taught me to play ride my bike, he tied n comb my hair , he wipe my tear when i fall to ground, bring me to school, bring me to dentist , buy me toys , teach me to read al-quran, solat, taught me to be polite n good to anyone , be a good daugther to him n mum, and to always love my family and be good to people etc...i cannot believe he is gone. i wish he couldve seen me grow up, i feel like this is a dream. 10 years ago...i think it was a nightmare im going to wake up and realise he is on a trip but that just isnt so.

he left so much behind and there is so much i wish we could do together. i miss him more and more every single day. i hope one day i will be able to thank him and hug him for all he had done for me. n I stayed strong for my mom, and for my little sister and brother, , i hold my promise dad. i'll never forget that..

He was an amazing man, who always made everyone around him laugh.

I will never forget you papa ,i miss u papa,

hanya al-fatihah dan surah yasin yang amy leh sedekah kat ayah.tetiap hari. doa I Love and Miss you so much. <3 Your little Girl

LOve papa's liltle girl

0oo0

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.
Friends that watch your back

Friends that play with your heart
All act the same from the start
Before you know it some disappear
Others stay beside you for life
Those are the friends

The best friends

^_^~

bekpes wajib xbekpes.orang kata kalo xbekpes.hari tu akan kelam kabut je sebab perot asek berbunyi cam gendang.hehe

nie adalah makan bekpes tetiap pagi.western la sgt kan..mne xgemok..burger, roti, french fries, n hot chocholate..

busan jugakk...

last weekend. me n housematee n group coass bercadang makan laksa penang.

tapi terpakse ditangguhkan kerana join acara Hero to Zero..opss Zero to Hero..hehe

Hari senin lepas, lepas pulang dari adam malik. dan dari dah rancang plan baik, dan bahagi2 tugas. Dalam jam 400 ptg start masak..yummy2...

da lame xmakan laksa penang, balik aritu pun xsempat nak makan sebab majlis kenduri byk sgt.hehe

* abaikan pinggan plastik..biase la umah org bujang..huh

TADAAA...nie la laksa penang ktorg..yum2..~~

finally

Lately I have been reading a book, Hulagu Khan . Many people have read it before I am sure. i borrowed this book with my senior,kak hajar.

just finished reading this book 10 minutes ago... after a week i started read this book.love this book!!. although i hate reading novel but i can't believe I am making this bold of statement but I think they have now replaced.

But that's just the bookworm in me talking. Just to let you know, about 3 people now think I'm goth or emo or something because I read the book. Ah, who cares.!! hahaha..

i really love ths book...know what, i wlling to read n borrow n maybe buy some another kinda .I don't read fiction, so personally, I feel lied to and manipulated by the author.

I was amazed at how this author pinpointed the plot of stories.and maybe the story has stayed with me for years and years.thought it was a great story, but had my doubts about its veracity after too many impossible things .

I dread waking up the next morning. I am about ready to drop everything and just move away.

dan sekarang saya di neurosurgery department.

salah satu department fav..specialist dan ppds yang baik, santai,lepak. ske bg bimbingan..i loike ! wlpn 2 weeks je kt dept ..i hope dpt byk bljr la kt sni..sbg bekal ms depan..uhuh

recently, ikut masuk OT...operation theatre..meningoensephalocele surgery..

dr yg pkai earing tu..my doctor,neurosurgeon..

motivation

fake it 'til you make it.

It really doesn't take that much extra energy to act interested. act to be interested in visites although i just got my knee hurts when i stand up on it for a long time n got nothing.

If you refuse to do the job you're training for, it's time to go.

You don´t learn medicine in lectures. You learn it by doing it

While it's entirely reasonable to refuse to do something you are uncomfortable with,

refusing to perform required duties is certainly not a good way to get a good evaluation (or learn!).

as dr murliza says in our usrah last night " kemampuan kita adalah lebih dari apa yang kita fikirkan sebenarnya.." so don' t be to afraid what we gonna face in one year later, HO's life, which was more more more busiest than a student life.dan "jangan malu untuk belajar n jaga atitude be a good HO".u can build ur strength in many ways; read al-quran, solat sunat, complete ur ibadat, tahajud..close to ur God. mean, what about those that are struggling to make those things easy, but are continuing each day to fight themselves over it?. how to make it consistent? Just like you cannot know someone until you communicate with them, you cannot be close to Allah without reading and understanding His spoken word, the Quran.Find company of righteous people try to be in the company of such people often, talk to them, befriend them, and respect them.If you want to remove the doubts in your mind regarding Allah, increase the level of your faith, and lessen the constricted distress in your soul regarding the truth about the life of this world (why we are here, what will happen after we die, etc.)I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.have fun with ur jobs , Change your perspective and you will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, your life will be different, the training you recieve like none other. So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile.

The medical student without a clue. No one expects med students to know everything, or to be able to answer all questions. But when a student is obviously not taking the time to learn about a particular specialty or topic, it really shows. but we don't have the luxury of studying all day long, but reading for even 20 minutes a day will show that you at least have the motivation to learn. You don't run in to the future doctors like that afterr all.sumtimes when clinical rotation being so bored...nothin to do needless to say I was able to get in some quality angry birds time on my phone.

Whether you like it or not, you’ll be stuck in this profession for at least 20-30 years, so might as well like it, and enjoy it. Kalau kamu “enjoy” pun kamu seorang doktor, kalau kamu tak “enjoy” pun kamu tetap seorang doktor, baik enjoy kalau macam tu, daripada terseksa emosi dan mental.”