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new year blast

2011-12-31T18:06:00.000-08:00

A new year inspires us to change something ,

this year bring me lot of fun n joy, oso realise me a lot about life;family is evrything,

Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate...not all thing we want we get,

we need to be struggle to achieve something.I have always struggled to achieve excellence.everyone does same thing* One thing that cycling has taught me is that if you can achieve something without a struggle it's not going to be satisfying.

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts,

The great recipe for success is to work, and always work.

Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments

my target 2012 :::

get new success and many new reasons to smile, Lose weight ( target BMI 19) ,

Give more to charity. Be a good muslimah. Be a good doctor. Be a good daughter.

be nice to friends and other people.go through the hardship of HO life..

Mend relationships,ready for a relationship?? ( ermm i will think about it later..aha!) ,

Saving money.Get my own car. Get a new phone. learn a lots of thing. Be confident. Be vise. Hardworking. be mature. the time is everything, dun be procrastinate

etc!!!!

last night..we hv BBQ wif all ex-brimobs n other frens

(exp qurr, na , syira je xde)

we will gonna miss u soon^__^wish u success, happiness n joy ~~!

friendship forever!

n make me realized da 5 tahun kat sni n we will left medan soon wif a lots of memories...

sdey sgt..^__^ tp happy nak balik mesia..

diz year gonna be tough year..

my graduation will be in february.

then i will go back for good n being a DOCTOR (scary aite)

personally, I was not that agitated about it.

I think it's because I really am grateful about my life on a daily basis.

I love what I do and the people I work with.

Medicine is a stressful job for anyone.

doctors are often dealing with difficult people who are sick,

they are seeing people when they aren't at their best, obviously.

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

Allah knows what is the best for His servants.

If it's your true passion to become a doctor

then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end.

It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.

i hope i will have fun with my jobs

Special memories of all the yesterdays.

A bright today with much to be thankful for.

A path that leads to beautiful tomorrows.

happy new year

wutttt??????????

2011-12-30T00:24:00.000-08:00

lepas satu2 masalah..

**xstress langsung !!**

masalah wisuda xsetel2 lg...

tarikh pn xconfrim..awl bln 2 laa..then tup2 dgr lak ura2 akhir bulan 2..

wehhh leh x ko fix tarikh btul..xprofesional lgsg!! * sbr je la !*

mslh nak beli tiket lg...igt beli dgn daun ke??

result ...

rumah...perabot2..baju2..bku2...

motor...

thennn....
bru je dapat msg dr kawan di FB,,,,

after diz TPM akan dikuat kuasakan...

yep cabaran makin sengit...

n menakutkan...

i know u can do it amy...

kalo org lain ,u pon boleh !!!

**fighting **!!!

point of no return

2011-11-27T04:11:00.000-08:00

Marshmallow =p

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

Memories fade away,

"Everything in your life happens for a reason. You may not understand why but someday you will."

i wanted to write. but, it will be like the past all over again.
there's no point writing it anymore.
no point typing it out.
it will be just another silly excuses, ending up nothing. bullshit.

no more bullshit .

no more excuses,
scumptious_marshmallow

dia.mereka.saya.

2011-11-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

sapu-sapu habuk kat blog bersawang labah2.

baru lepas panas enjin nak study.tp xde mood plak bler pkir esok ada oncall.huu.belum kemas2 lagi. oncall di obstetric and gynaecology dept pertiga hari n sangat2 xsabar nak habis clinical cepat2. sambil tggu water heater panaskan air...visit my blog yg brsawang neh. org wat blog, die nak blog jugak...hahhaha itu laa..remaja! eceh.

walaupun sibuk..sibuk ke? sempat jugak ak ngan kawan2 p tgk breaking down pas marghrib tadi. ni la "mak kasi duet suh blaja, kome p tgk wayang ye!"..hahahha.

yea, review. cter best, ade gak part censored* eh byk*, * jgn bawak dak kecik ok*, jalan cter menarik, jacob handsome, edward cool n sweet ..hahahha.. n sampai trpkse la sy kne p tgk utk part 2 nanty.ugh kejam laa wat part 1 n 2...! tgk wayang untuk cuci2 mate n untuk semangat study, balik hampeh. ngantuk lg.

tapi ade part yg ak plg sedey smpai nak nanges, mase ayah dia tgk bella nak kawen.hntr bella ke edward. n masa nak lepaskan bella pegi. msti mase tu naluri sorg ayh nak lepaskan anak dara die pegi. ugh masa tu jugak ak rindu kat my dad.if he could see me grown up n mature ,

i remembered when i was 9 years old, i follow my dad, dia p tlg deliver seekor lembu dengan intrauterine death, kesian lembu tu...n masa balik rumah

my dad asked me "amy nak jadi doktor haiwan macam ayah x?"

..then i was yelling.." x nak, lembu busuk, ade taik, n ade ekor kibas2". * mase tu mati2 ak igt keje veterinar tu merawat lembu je*

then my dad laugh.."haha, bila la anak ayah nak mature...xpe nanti besar amy janji jaga ayah n mak nnti kami da tua nanti yea.".* sambil dia usap2 kapla sy..

.then i angguk-angguk tanda paham.. ***moment tu ,sampai tu je sy igt***

yea, u can't even see mature or grown up, dad....=.= i really really miss u

i want to make u proud, n be a good daughter. i'm so sorry for everything i have done.

be thankful ^_^

2011-10-29T10:33:00.001-07:00

Be thankful and stop comparing Be thankful that you don't already have

everything you desire. If you did,

what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something,

for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.

During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations,

because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge,

because it will build your strength and character.Be thankful for your mistakes.

They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary,

because it means you've made a differenceBe thankful for who you are, despite of how you looK, be thankful for what you have as Allah SWT has given you what is best for you, be thankful and stop comparing yourself with what other people have and feel enough with what you have will make you the richest person on earth..

Stop focusing on the physical (the look) and start perfecting your heart (manners). Thenyou will result in tranquility, trust me.. It's great to receive a neutral point of view for a change. Thank you again

what change u?

2011-10-23T16:13:00.000-07:00

Someone once told me that

“knowledge is power and is no weight to carry around”

and I now know that to be true.

i'm just read an article at RD.." The wall that change me" written by ex-prisoner, who came back from a place that buried him alive, re-new his life in better way n more meaningful.

click diz: http://www.rdasia.com/the-walls-that-changed-me

When you set out with a plan in life and it doesn’t go quite right, it’s because God has a better plan for you. I always try to remember that.

stupido loser kiddy

2011-10-08T05:29:00.000-07:00

Never regret of what i was doing now, Medical Students…

Isn’t this your school-age AMBITION?

Yer cikgu, saye nak jadi dokter. Saye nak bantu orang sakit.*wth!!*

Wasn’t that your kiddy answer?

Yes, you wanted to be here. Yes you are.

Think! Think back. Its not easy to get you here. Yes, here. How many years had you struggled to get you in this profession. You are now half-step distance to become a doctor. Never turn back.

I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah.

Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.

:)amypeMalasMmGnaKknEleMpang!!

i don't know where my motivation recently..myb it stop somewhere..i wanna callin it back...

hello !! hello !! i nak jd rajen n bersemangat macam waktu kanak2 rebina n muda dulu kala...hahahhaa...cepat datang mood sy..hehe***

Never let negative thought under estimate yourself, your capability. just let go wut people say negative to u, see in positive way. *..just ignored wut people say about u..or under estimate u.let it go..yg penting, u know wut u do, ur capability, n ur willingness..coz u know who u're..".. If other doctors who can do it, why not you? WHY NOT YOU? Of course there is NO SHORTCUT to be one. A specialist, supervisor, consultant. You think it is easy to become one? They also had struggled through tough years to be one. Yes.

But don't you think that the professional doctors were also a 'small/young doctor' before? =) Nobody can become professional straight away..it all requires practices and experiences..so, why don't dis people support us. i have my own motivate why i'm being here and hv my own reason why..i never told anybody, it always be my secret n it always be..* papa, amy tau amy BOLEH..it's not your dream anymore, it's mine..*

Every king was once a weak baby, and every awesome building was once just a drawing on a piece of paper. And you? THINK!

Jadi dokter, satu pekerjaan yang mulia. Yes, doctors playing God. But yet, everything happen dengan IzinNya. Saving lives, isn’t that mulia? Imagine you save someone’s life or making someone to have a better quality of life. And that person able to beribadat and do good things because you’ve helped that person. Don’t you think “saham pahala” gets to you? Allah knows.

take time to think !!!!

.So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile.Success is simple. Do what’s right, the right way, at the right time

power passenger passage

2011-10-08T03:38:00.000-07:00

It's been such a long time i don't write..

hello my blog..* huk3..batuk2 sebab banyak habuk n sawang lelabah*

currently at new department .O&G...obstetric n gynaecology =)

let talk about power passage passenger...haha xla..sy newbie lg kt dept nie...

best.best..bestt..best ke??

o&g...o&g...o&g....10 more week to go..caiyok emila!! u can do it ! ^_^ giving it the best. all of the hard work will be worth it in the end..

i just read an article about underestimate people..

i don't like people underestimate me. i'll said *go cermin diri u laa. so u think u'r good enuff 0_o???*

Don't underestimate me. I'll only prove you wrong.

...most other people have under estimated me and gotten bit back hard

That being said, this ^^ can work to your advantage at times, especially in competitions. .When a potential employer or patients or other important figure underestimates you, it's a bad thing, but if the competition underestimates you, that's a major plus. Basically, learn how to impress the people you want to impress.I've always had the same kind of thing happen to me. Then, I figured out that being underestimated is often your greatest advantage if you play your cards right. Don't pass up the chance to use this. ;)

seperti kata our supervisor doctor specilaist obstetric&gynaecology td..smbil bimbingan kasi juge ceramah agama sket..he said dat...." Allah lahirkan kita ke dunia dalam keadaan lemah ( bayi), perlu dijaga, perlu dibagi makan oleh ibu bapa..jadi jangan la sombong, wlpn ilmu hnye secebis da nak sombong...huuu..belajar cm peribahasa padi tu..makin berisi makin tunduk.....n ske juge ayat dia yg last.."blaja laa kalian, saya harap kalian jangan berhenti setakat ini sahaja.saya berharap kalian jadi specialist ..dan sambung belajar...kerana ilmu yang Allah kurniakan itu sangat luas, setiap manusia perlu belajar...."..saya suka doctor yang cmni..sambil sharing2 ilmu..dan bagi nasihat serta semangat juga...xsombong dan bagus...salah satu doctor kesukaan sy !! sy respect beliau ^_^

pose lagik ~~!

2011-08-01T05:26:00.000-07:00

pejam celik pejam celik..da 5 thn kt medan neh..

dan sudah 5 thn pose kt medan ..neh last ramadhan kt medan.

Yeah, I know, this Ramadhan will be very different than before.

i will gonna miss my frens here too...

bile teringat balik masa dolu2...pose mmg best..smpai skank pon msh cmtu...

paling kelakar time nak semayang terawih la kan..kami terawih kt rumah je..sbb mls nak pegi surau..we all lbh memilih smyg kt umah wlpn surau dkt..sbb condition lebh conducive kt umah ...

biler tyme beratur saf2 nak solat....me n my housemates sumer tolak2 xmo jadi imam.kelaka2..cam dak kecik.hahha..

then last2 wawa laa akan jd imam..

utk menggelakkan keadaan seperti tu ...so..sumer bende kene undi..

undi turn masak n undi nak jadi imam pon ade hahhaha..

...undi kne kawen dlu ade ke nnty korg ??? hak3 jgn2

today is our first ramadhan...

pagi2 td masa sahur macam biasa adat kt sini..

ade pakcik/ abg sikampling tu kejutkan sahur..

SAHURRR !! SAHUR !!!

terkejut mak aiii tgh mimpi syok td malam...

dengan ketuk2 n gendang berbagai ntah ape laa bising sgt..

tp bgs jugak..harapkan alarm..mmg laa xmgkin ak bgun..

sahur mee goreng yg keyna masak smlm..

puasa arini xterasa sgt..dekat forensic...pegi pmbt pon oke je..

sembang2...bout terawih, read al-quran , solat sunat n witir as well ,

give n send ur "beautiful packaging" to above

sembang nye sembang...ehh bljr x neh..blaja2 smbil ade sampingan .hehhe

then tetibe dapat balik awal arini..

balik then take a nap...

rindu bazar ramadhan...sbb bosan makanan kt cni esp makanan kt kedai...

so puasa ktorg wat turn masak..

dan hari ni juga my turn utk msak..ok..

dr pagi td duk pkir nak masak apa la kt diorg neh..

da la lame giler xmasak kan...huhu..takut la xsedap kan...kne pndai budjet kang trkurang sbb nak masak utk sahur skali ..or trlebih takut membazir..hahahha...byk plak pkir kan...

ak lak kan jd chef , selalunye chef neh ikut taste die..yea semestinye

last2 ak masak Oyster Mushroom with black pepper ,(fried mushroom) mushroom celup tepung , fried chicken, plus dengan air jagung..yummy !!! ehh..biase je...nama je nak keren ..rs biasa je muahhaha..

Hmm.. also thinking of Ramadhan.. I remember my previous one when i was in form 1- form 5.. it was blissful.. I used to walk to the mosque with my grandma n my sister ... and I observed some people, khusyu’ in their prayer, I felt humbled.. and on my way home, looking at the moon, felt so serene and all worries faded away.. Hope this Ramadhan would be even more meaningful, InsyaAllah..

Let us collect as much 'pahala' as we can through ibadah and noble deeds in this month. terawih, read al-quran , solat sunat n witir as well , give n send ur " beautiful packaging" to above. Lailatul qadar should not be wasted. Let's be one from many that meets the day.

Happy fasting everyone, please forgive all of my fault that might be happen between us. May Allah bless us and gives us all the kindness. Lets make this ramadhan our best ramadhan.

May I end by wishing again a peaceful Ramadhan to all.

mashed potatoes~~~

2011-07-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

sedang relax abes dept orthopaedic semalam...

then rs kebusanan teramat..

pastu ak layan yes tv..tetibe lak cter masterchef...die buat mashed potatoes..yaa i'm drooling..

teringin lak nak makan..kfc kt cni plak xde mashed potatoes mcm kt mesia .benci btul...

so ak dgn rajennye p swalayan n kedai depan lepas search kt tenet resepi mashed potatoes..yummy ~!!

Mashed Potatoes @ Kentang Putar

Bahan-bahannya:8 - 10 biji kentang (Kupas kulit) dan potong dua : tapi ak gne 3 ketul je potatoes hahaha makan sorg kan...

250gm butter

1 kotak kecil susu segar

serbuk lada hitam (ditumbuk halus)

serbuk lada sulah

neh kte lenyek2 kan kentang tu..tgk tu susu ultra milk high calcium LOW FAT oke !

Cara-caranya

1. Kentang di kupas dan di potong lebih kurang sama saiz. Masukkan dalam periuk dan rebus dengan air yang cukup-cukup menutup kentang. Rebus dlm 20minit.

2. Bila kentang cukup empuk, toskan air dan letakkan semula di atas api supaya lebihan air dapat dikeringkan. Alihkan dari atas api.

3. Masukkan sedikit butter dalam kentang dan leyek (butter tu ikut suka, nak letak lebih ke atau sikit..terpulang pada anda)

4. Season dengan lada sulah dan lada hitam. Jika nak pedas letak lebih.

5. Tuangkan susu dan lenyek lagi hingga rata. (susu ni pun letak ikut sesedap rasa..masuk sikit demi sekit) Susu akan buat mashed potatoes lebih gebu dan lemak.

Gravy @ Sos

Bahan-bahannya:

1 labu bawang besar.

2 ulas bawang putih (ketuk dan chopped)

4 sudu butter

2 sudu tepung jagung

2 cube ayam maggie

lada hitam/sulah

2 cawan air

Cara-caranya

1. Cairkan butter dalam kuali. Tumis bawang. Biarkan dia caramelized. Kasi hangus-hangus sket.

2. Masukkan tepung jagung. Tumis sampai tepung warna coklat. Atau sampai warna gravy yang dikehendaki.

3. Masukkan air. Kacau sampai rata .

4. Pecahkan cube ayam tadi dan masukkan dalam kuah. Masukkan sekali lada hitam dan lada sulah secukup rasa.

5. Kalau kuah terlalu pekat. Tambah air.

6. Kacau rata. Tutup api. Masukkan kuah dalam blender. Blender sampai tak berketul. Hidangkan bersama mashed potatoes.

tadaa!! da siap hehe..xde scoop .biar la xboolat pon kan..hehe

resepi nye senang giler kott..

tp ade gak bahan2 yg xde ak cr..so terpkse laa ak alter skett..hahahha

1st time try buat neh...so xde la enak sgtt..tp tekak ak leh laa telan kan..muhahahhahaha

leh makan n roti utk breakfast n makan malam...so dpt diet...then cukup gizi hahah ye ke??..

best wishes

2011-07-24T04:20:00.000-07:00

pak's face just like arwah tok ki...kann

I never thought I would write; I am not one to attend help groups or speak to people I don't know about something that is causing me pain or sad.

Sometimes something comes across me, my mind, like a wave sweeping water across my face and all I can think of is Dad. I get lost in a thought of my Dad, even while in conversation with my friends. but i really miss my dad.

it almost 14 years my dad had past away...n till then i also very closed with my uncle or call him "Pak/ Pok" . he is my mother's brother..he is very kind and though man..just like papa..although he have a wife n 2 daughter , he always taking good care to 4 of us..n came visit us every week. I respect and love my uncle very much, And I respect and listen to him as well.i always remember how he tell us to stand straight up and respect when Negaraku song play..haha yea he is quite disciplined man ( ex-military) and he can play guitar very well n always sing special song for us..4 of us.. i can't say all those word ( sebak ) !!!... I don’t know if I’ve ever told you. But you are as good as my dad .

You are always there. I know that you will always care of us .

2 months ago, my uncle was diagnosed with a cyst which located behind the cervical vetebra, he complained generalized weakness upper n lower limb, headache,, And today ( 23 august 2011) , he had an operation,hope the neurosurgeon was doin well. after 8 hours operation,my sister just message me that he still unconscious ( bcoz of general anesthesia effect after the operation) .. and but my mum was so sad.Then i call my family , just to comfort them. my dad always sad " It's important to let the one you love know that you are there for them do not neglect those that are present & alive in your life that you care about."

pray for the best for my uncle. i hope tommorrow he wake up and smile again. i'm sending my prayers to my uncle..i wish my uncle speedy recovery n Hope to see his smile n hug him for this raya again...

life goes on

2011-07-11T09:05:00.000-07:00

Be stroNg n

life goes on..

juz gonna make me strong.. but by d end of d day,i realize..i’m not dat strong after all… I'm trying my best... to put my full trust in Allah. In everything that will face me. The future that I am still very unsure of, and for the many choices that I am trying to make. I can never do it without His help. Do pray for me... to be guided by Allah, now, and always.Verily without Him, we are nothing, nothing at all..

So may Allah protect us from anything bad, and always lead us to right path, every step of the way.

path that i have chosen

2011-06-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

mungkin ayat tu selalu aku ulang tayang kat status FB. dan ramai kawan2 tanya kenapa i selalu letak ayat tu. atau mungkin mereka menganggarkan ak dah putus asa, ak rasa ak rugi amek medic. ya salah sumer!!.

Walaupun kapla otak ak lahir cam otak math,kalau dulu ak selalu dapat high score utk subject math physic n chemisrty, n biology biasa2 je sbb , malas nak baca. ak xske biology. ak lebih suka add math, physic and chemistry. tapi tak tahu kenapa after matrix ak leh tersasar amek medic.

first year, ak rasa belajar medic senang. asal p lec hall, dengar lecturer kasi kuliah, then balik study sket. Pastu p lab, wat keje sekolah. group discussion . Then ikut case study, pleno pakar. n etc. Final exam, OSCE . so ak xrasa berat sangat.

second year, ak masih rasa belajar tu senang. walaupun ak xpandai sangat, tapi ak suke belajar. Memang senang nak score kat dalam exam, kalo otak anda jenis yg menghafal, sebab soalan dalam exam sebijik dalam lecture notes...pokoknya kalo kau hafal dari tajuk hadapan lecture note sampai noktah terakhir kat lecture note tu CONFIRM ko akan dapat score A dalam exam, tapi ak jenis xsuka menghafal, sbb ak mmg lembab bab hafal2.

3rd year, da rasa stress. banyak mende yang kena recall2. No one expects med students to know everything, or to be able to answer all questions. But when a student is obviously not taking the time to learn about a particular specialty or topic, it really shows. sebab basic lemah, banyak hal kena baca balik. Then dalam tutorial @ case study, macam biasa. tapi best lagi la sebab masih area belajar kt campus lg. so relax n santai. then tetibe kami kne buat KTI (komite tggi indonesia) ehh xde la, tu kire cam penelitian, hurm stress yang amat masa tu nak siapkan mende alah tu before masuk clinical, kire cam campus ugut la, kalo ko tak buat penelitian ko tak boleh masuk clinical or grad, damn !! mesti la kena siapkan , sapa nak jadi mahasiswa sepanjang masa kan, xsanggup ak , ak nak abeskan cepat2. Tapi akhirnya kami dapat siapkan dengan jayanya KTI kami.hahahhahahhaha!! walaupun KTI tuh adalah macam &(%^&*$%. dapat gak ak grad. shhhhhh~~!

Clinical year, ( lower cycle) , rasa macam kuli. seyes rasa macam KULI .supervisor baek, tapi jadi kuli PPDS, kuli nurse. uhuks.act to be interested in visites although i just got my knee hurts when i stand up on it for a long time n got nothing. If you refuse to do the job you're training for, it's time to go.You don´t learn medicine in lectures. You learn it by doing it (* masa tu ak rasa kenapa la ak nak jadi doctor kan.....macam kuli je). Oncall ak rasa cam disaster, sebab kena folkep ( follow ketat) it's mean u need to check BP, and vital sign maybe every per 2 hours or per hour !! okeh, disebabkan masa tu lower cycle, so masih skema, tetiba ak rasa useless. Padahal point yg penting bukan mende alah tu, sepatutnya ak da tahu apa patut ak buat masa tu.( patut la orang kata pengalaman mengajar kita) . Kadang2 rasa best juga, bukan la jadi kuli je, banyak gak ilmu ak dapat sebenarnya, sebab banyak masa belajar dulu kt bangku kuliah ak xpaham sangat ape lecturer ajar, pastu baru ak paham bila dah tengok patient sendiri.

Clinical year upper cycle, then sekarang baru ak paham, doctor is an art. its mean dengan theory yg ko dapat, ko kena apply kat patient tergantung condition. the way u think for the very best for your patients, padahal pola fikir macam nie da ak belajar masa case study dlu...lembab betul ak nak adaptation, dan ak sekarang rasa nak abeskan cepat2 belajar kat sini. sumtimes when clinical rotation being so bored...nothin to do needless to say I was able to get in some quality

this is the path that i have chosen, so i shall bear no reGrets!!

berbalik pada ayat di atas ini, ya betul. nie jalan yang aku pilih sepatutnya ak xboleh rasa menyesal!! . kalau ak mahu orang hormat ak kenapa ak xjadi hakim je, cth masa hakim masuk dewan pengadilan, sumer orang bangun, doctor pn belajr penat gak 5-6tahun, alih2 kena maki la kena cakap malpraktek laa...... Kenapa doctor masuk clinic sumer orang xbangun pon?? alek2 doctor yang kena p salam2 dengan patient. baikkan doctor. hewhew.
Kenapa?? pulak ak tak pilih jadi engineer or cikgu ke dulu?? tengok kawan2 aku amek cikgu, enginering sekarang da keja , da beli keta honda civic , keta honda jazz, mazda 6, CRV, keta proton saga, oke ak apa yang ada scooter, tu pon da berhabuk kelabu da sebab lama xbasuh, sebab xde masa, n why ak pilih amek medic yang belajar lama, long life learning, kne jd 'KULI" , kena maki, balik2 bangun pagi2, angkat beg sekolah yang berat tu, then start enjin scooter , lari2 sebab lambat ke morning report. Kalau dulu ak pernah terfikir itu adalah beban, sekarang ak rasa tu adalah 1 tanggungjawab. Yang ak perasan, segala jalan yang ak lalui sangat mudah dan smooth dengan pertolongan Allah SWT, ini adalah jalan yang Tuhan bagi pada ak, dan ak perlu bersyukur and I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.have fun with ur jobs , Change your perspective and you will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, your life will be different, the training you recieve like none other. So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile. Ak perlu kuatkan semangat lagi, sebab masih panjang perjalanan hidup neh. Never let negative thought under estimate yourself, your capability. If other doctors who can do it, why not you? WHY NOT YOU? Of course there is NO SHORTCUT to be one. You think it is easy to become one? They also had struggled through tough years to be one. Yes.

although i dun have high ambition, i hv zero think to take any specialities .to me, just nice if i just want to serve my residency at my place when i become a doctor
but i really want to join charity work *luckily it was a good side in me*
through this i can feel there was unlucky people in this world n make me realize i'm so lucky. personally, I was not that agitated about it. I think it's because I really am grateful about my life on a daily basis. I love what I do and the people I work with.Medicine is a stressful job for anyone. doctors are often dealing with difficult people who are sick, they are seeing people when they aren't at their best, obviously. Yes. It's not easy but i'll try my best.

pampering day

2011-06-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

everyday just like da same..routinely..wake up, go to shower, breakfast, go to hospital, driving in stressful road in medan,waiting da doctors almost for nuthin, lunch, go back home, sleep, studying, oncall...etc...rotate same thing everyday..n everyday just the same !!

Escape from the daily stresses of life and enjoy a day of pampering ourself at spa.

2 days holidays..i manage my holidays pampered myself. it was so long i not pampering myself at spa.

outing with my bestie, emma n wawa. it was totally awesome! the service was awesome. we did everything from top to toe and definitely felt rejuvenated after the session. but the quality time spent was the most valuable of course and definitely worth every rupee. hehe,.sauna:i need to sit in that small zip compartment n sweating like hell. burn lemak2 n open pore..( i think i gonna buy diz sauna compartment one day) . then, massage ,scrub and cream bath. bestnye kalo de duet, ...sebulan sekali pon oke..hehe..

happy besday Mak !!

2011-06-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

You are the best Mom in the world.

I'm so grateful that I have you as a Mom.

Thanks for always believing in me.

Happy birthday to my favorite Mommy.

Thanks for all the support that you have given to me.

Thank you for being such a kind and loving Mother.

When I grow up, I want to be just like you.

Happy birthday to my role model.

It's truly a blessing to have you as a mother.

I'm so glad that God gave me a mother like you.

Happy Birthday Mom.

There is no other Mother like you....

muaxxss!!

tepat jam 12 malam 2 jun 2011 , ak tggu untuk wish my mum birthday

tup2..my sis cakap da tdo..ok laa pagi sok je la.

pagi semalam ak tepon my mum..

amy: assalamualaikum...mak !!

mak: wslm...

amy: happy birthday..

mak: thanks...u number 2 wish kt mak..tp cik ju da tepon first pagi2 td.

amy: alaa.. ishud be da first..tp semalam u tdo awal sgt.

mak: ye ke.

amy: mak da tua da 50 da..hehe

mak: ye laa..anak pon da tuaaa.. , mak da tua tp anak xkawen2 lg..

amy: (aiyak! cepat2 n scr spontan ak tukar topic) , mak masak ape arini??

mak: sje je ..tukar topic...hehe, mak masak nasik kerabu..

amy: waa best nye, bukan lisa n nina ke nak buat? asl mak lak yg masak?

mak: lisa n nina masih tdo lg..mak bgn awl td, mak masak sorg.

amy: ish3, dua org tu, plan nak hebat..last2 mak gak masak..hehe

mak: tu la...makan ape breakfast pg ne? xkeje ke?

amy: cuti....masak nasik lemak reramai..rindu lame xmakan.

n blaa..blaa..bla

miss my mum....]

miss my home..

hibernate

2011-05-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

3 days cuti. tapi terpaksa oncall malam.

1st day cuti: xde yang menarek just, tidur, kemas bilik, tido lg....

2nd day cuti: masak2 nasik ayam..yum2..da lamo dapur xberasap...

tadaaaa...best!!

3rd day cuti: period time,not in da mood , ujan, tido, hibernasi, then surfing internet..tertarik pada mask kose seikisho..waaaa cm best jaaa.review nye review..ramai giler gne product neh n oke gak laa...waaa .xsaba nak balik mesia n cr mask neh..nak2!!! NAKKKK Kose Seikisho Mask White !!**wat capital letter nmpk smgt sket kan.. i love looking good, n everyone love looking good too !!

moody =.=

2011-05-04T03:34:00.000-07:00

i really love my job

but I feel so trapped here wif all da work n tiredness. according to last night oncall really make me so moody. i dun like the chief.i mean the girl with tahi lalat gedabak kat dahi..i dun like her, she was so rude n last night she just gve me a reason to hate her more! oh plisss!! wish time would move faster!!! ..I don't know what to do...

thanks to my friends terpakse dengar my keluhan2..hehe..sorry to say my mouth xde insurans sket time marah...oh demm!!

I hate that when I am having a hard day.

then i need to tell my myself be patient, jgn cepat mare, coz u r not work for her , i worked for my patients.I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here.Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.i'll have fun with my jobs ,i'll change my perspective and i will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, my life will be different, the training dat i recieve like none other. So if i were going into medicine for the right reasons, i will find the ride worthwhile.

tiredness is a dominant trait now, hate myself for it every single day

I see myself as a lazy person, i cant find anything that motivates me to do what i want, this is a big issue and i need to fix it. I hate being so lazy

eat

2011-04-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

other life goal diet theory..

Eat Breakfast like a king, Lunch like a prince(ss) and Dinner like a beggar. Since I do great all day but fail at dinnertime, does anyone think this is a helpful plan?

it means in the morning your more active so you eat big, afternoon a bit less and evening time a small portion, as it will lie in your stomach all night and wont get work off.

King = carefull if he eat, afraid poison
Prince = neutral
Beggar = can't choose their food.

well that's the theory anyway.

Some people swear by the breakfast for king thing but if it doesn't work for me, then it's absolutely ok to ditch it. Personally, dinner is my favorite meal of the day so I plan to eat my most calories then. I would fail utterly if I had to have a tiny dinner. And it sounds like dinner is when i eat the most too, so if i am also having a huge a breakfast, it's going to be really hard to stay in diz range.

xXXXxxxXXxxx choose??

2011-04-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hate the thought to choose the which part or negeri shud i choose for HO...i need to think about my mum( kesian my mum nnty sorang2 kt umah..xde org stay kt umah next year..mu sis kt ireland, my bro kt uitm xabes lg, my younger sister oso will go to univ or matrix....),my responsible ( who r goin to accompany my mum, n take care of my mum) , my study (keje kt hospital yg byk case?? yg best??? keje jao2..nnty leh balik teganu lame tyme MO) , my future planning nak keje dekat2 je, saving more money( duk umah lg save money..hee=)). future planning..uhh..hurmm..ughhhh!!! yea i become a mature women talking about diz now...nO!! i shud think about diz NoW!! **byk btul nak kne pkir bler da dewasa neh..aigoooO!!! help me!

Everytime i think of it, i will get a headache. I getting headache often now. Maybe i got too many problem and my head can't take it nor my body can take it further. Can i still carry on. I wonder???????Do people need to break my dreams over and over again. Can't i hope for a bit of dreams coming true and stop blaming me for everything. I so so so so tired of everything. I can really sleep forever if this carry on. I must stand up again. It is still not the time to give up so early. Ok i going to rest soon. haha Gd night to the world out there

homesickoo~~!

2011-04-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

I'm sooo homesickoo.

My family is everything to me

miss my mum badly

miss my sisters n bro

miss my home

I feel so trapped here wif all da work n tiredness.

I don't know what to do...

I hate that when I am having a hard day with her I can't call and ask my mom to come over.

I hate that I can't sit on my parents front porch anytime. watching television. I want to.

i hate evrything which is so hard to me...i hate people who alwiz judge me wrong. why evryone wanna control all my life. ..I feel so miserable here, it doesn't feel like home.I want go back..go back home.. I was so happy where we used to be and now I just want to cry. Sorry, this is getting a bit much but I just feel so not in da mood today.

i miss him so much

2011-03-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

now, it almost 14 years u hv gone to rahmatullah ,every great thing i use to think and see while he was with me is now gone into something i never wanna forget but i can't stand to remember.

he was n is my hero.he taught me to play ride my bike, he tied n comb my hair , he wipe my tear when i fall to ground, bring me to school, bring me to dentist , buy me toys , teach me to read al-quran, solat, taught me to be polite n good to anyone , be a good daugther to him n mum, and to always love my family and be good to people etc...i cannot believe he is gone. i wish he couldve seen me grow up, i feel like this is a dream. 10 years ago...i think it was a nightmare im going to wake up and realise he is on a trip but that just isnt so.

he left so much behind and there is so much i wish we could do together. i miss him more and more every single day. i hope one day i will be able to thank him and hug him for all he had done for me. n I stayed strong for my mom, and for my little sister and brother, , i hold my promise dad. i'll never forget that..

He was an amazing man, who always made everyone around him laugh.

I will never forget you papa ,i miss u papa,

hanya al-fatihah dan surah yasin yang amy leh sedekah kat ayah.tetiap hari. doa I Love and Miss you so much. <3 Your little Girl

LOve papa's liltle girl

0oo0

2011-03-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.
Friends that watch your back

Friends that play with your heart
All act the same from the start
Before you know it some disappear
Others stay beside you for life
Those are the friends

The best friends

^_^~

2011-03-16T06:30:00.000-07:00

bekpes wajib xbekpes.orang kata kalo xbekpes.hari tu akan kelam kabut je sebab perot asek berbunyi cam gendang.hehe

nie adalah makan bekpes tetiap pagi.western la sgt kan..mne xgemok..burger, roti, french fries, n hot chocholate..

busan jugakk...

last weekend. me n housematee n group coass bercadang makan laksa penang.

tapi terpakse ditangguhkan kerana join acara Hero to Zero..opss Zero to Hero..hehe

Hari senin lepas, lepas pulang dari adam malik. dan dari dah rancang plan baik, dan bahagi2 tugas. Dalam jam 400 ptg start masak..yummy2...

da lame xmakan laksa penang, balik aritu pun xsempat nak makan sebab majlis kenduri byk sgt.hehe

* abaikan pinggan plastik..biase la umah org bujang..huh

TADAAA...nie la laksa penang ktorg..yum2..~~

finally

2011-03-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been reading a book, Hulagu Khan . Many people have read it before I am sure. i borrowed this book with my senior,kak hajar.

just finished reading this book 10 minutes ago... after a week i started read this book.love this book!!. although i hate reading novel but i can't believe I am making this bold of statement but I think they have now replaced.

But that's just the bookworm in me talking. Just to let you know, about 3 people now think I'm goth or emo or something because I read the book. Ah, who cares.!! hahaha..

i really love ths book...know what, i wlling to read n borrow n maybe buy some another kinda .I don't read fiction, so personally, I feel lied to and manipulated by the author.

I was amazed at how this author pinpointed the plot of stories.and maybe the story has stayed with me for years and years.thought it was a great story, but had my doubts about its veracity after too many impossible things .

I dread waking up the next morning. I am about ready to drop everything and just move away.

dan sekarang saya di neurosurgery department.

salah satu department fav..specialist dan ppds yang baik, santai,lepak. ske bg bimbingan..i loike ! wlpn 2 weeks je kt dept ..i hope dpt byk bljr la kt sni..sbg bekal ms depan..uhuh

recently, ikut masuk OT...operation theatre..meningoensephalocele surgery..

dr yg pkai earing tu..my doctor,neurosurgeon..

motivation

2011-03-13T08:04:00.000-07:00

fake it 'til you make it.

It really doesn't take that much extra energy to act interested. act to be interested in visites although i just got my knee hurts when i stand up on it for a long time n got nothing.

If you refuse to do the job you're training for, it's time to go.

You don´t learn medicine in lectures. You learn it by doing it

While it's entirely reasonable to refuse to do something you are uncomfortable with,

refusing to perform required duties is certainly not a good way to get a good evaluation (or learn!).

as dr murliza says in our usrah last night " kemampuan kita adalah lebih dari apa yang kita fikirkan sebenarnya.." so don' t be to afraid what we gonna face in one year later, HO's life, which was more more more busiest than a student life.dan "jangan malu untuk belajar n jaga atitude be a good HO".u can build ur strength in many ways; read al-quran, solat sunat, complete ur ibadat, tahajud..close to ur God. mean, what about those that are struggling to make those things easy, but are continuing each day to fight themselves over it?. how to make it consistent? Just like you cannot know someone until you communicate with them, you cannot be close to Allah without reading and understanding His spoken word, the Quran.Find company of righteous people try to be in the company of such people often, talk to them, befriend them, and respect them.If you want to remove the doubts in your mind regarding Allah, increase the level of your faith, and lessen the constricted distress in your soul regarding the truth about the life of this world (why we are here, what will happen after we die, etc.)I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.have fun with ur jobs , Change your perspective and you will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, your life will be different, the training you recieve like none other. So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile.

The medical student without a clue. No one expects med students to know everything, or to be able to answer all questions. But when a student is obviously not taking the time to learn about a particular specialty or topic, it really shows. but we don't have the luxury of studying all day long, but reading for even 20 minutes a day will show that you at least have the motivation to learn. You don't run in to the future doctors like that afterr all.sumtimes when clinical rotation being so bored...nothin to do needless to say I was able to get in some quality angry birds time on my phone.

Whether you like it or not, you’ll be stuck in this profession for at least 20-30 years, so might as well like it, and enjoy it. Kalau kamu “enjoy” pun kamu seorang doktor, kalau kamu tak “enjoy” pun kamu tetap seorang doktor, baik enjoy kalau macam tu, daripada terseksa emosi dan mental.”

2011-03-10T05:14:00.000-08:00

I want to get things done but not bad enuff to actually DO THEM. I procrastinate and hate myself for it every single day

I see myself as a lazy person, i cant find anything that motivates me to do what i want, this is a big issue and i need to fix it. I hate being so lazy, I’ll just waste hours online and staring into space, I stay in instead of going out with my friends but then I’m too lazy to do any work to make it worth my while so I regret staying in

shushhh2 setan malas asek duk goda ak je..!!

butterfly

2011-03-10T04:54:00.000-08:00

don't waste your time

If life is a waste of time and time is a waste of life, lets all get wasted and have the time of our lives

We are like butterflies who flutter for a day and think it is forever.

How does one become a butterfly?" girl asked pensively.

"You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar"

The butterfly counts not months but moments, And has time enough.

their life is short. it used n shared their look to others.fly everywhere.

I want the experience of the butterfly.

wo butterflies were in love………

One day, they decided to play Hide n Seek…….

During the play…..

Boy Butterfly – “A small game within us”
Girl Butterfly – “OK”
Boy Butterfly – “The one who sits in this flower
tomorrow early in the morning is the one who loves
the other one more…..”
Girl Butterfly – “OK”

Next morning, the boy butterfly waits for the
flower to open so that he can sit before the girl
butterfly does……

Finally, the flower opened…..

What did he see…..?????

The girl butterfly had died inside the flower…..

She stayed there all night……so that early in
the morning……as soon as she sees him…….she
can fly to him and tell him how much she loved
him……..

^_^~

2011-03-09T09:42:00.000-08:00

walaupun da malam menjelang. ak xde mood nak study.yeah.

then ak jejalan tgk pemandangan.hahha.tetibe tgk kawan sesekolah dlu. dlu xde la cantek sgt die neh..seigt ak sbb ak xigt pon die.hahhaha. oh damn. jaat mulut ak. oi temahh leh x jaga mulut ang.kne band nnty xpon kne saman. nak ke?**

hehehe xde la, sje nak wat perbandingan. skank die cam gorgeous semacam.acehh..ak pon ape lg menyibuk seketika.heehhe.

amy: hi..@@@ ( nama sebenar dirahsia kan) , mu napok comey leni..pakai ape weh? kongsi2..heheh

@@@: hye..ak pkai XXX, dah 6 bulan. tp efek de cepat..masa 3 mggu da boleh nampak. kulit makin cerah n parut2 sumer hilang. parut ak kne chicken pox pon hilang weh.

amy: seyes dop weh??? ce bg name ke link product tu...

begini la pompuan.kalo xcakap pasal kosmetik, baju, shopping..adeii bukan name pompuan namenye. hahahahha..ye ke temah ???

omaigod. ak abes dekat 2 jam ak research pasal product tu. sumer org kate miracle. oo.emm.gee. adakah ak patut try gak? kebetulan lak parut varicella ak dah 3 mggu xde perubahan pon. ade perubahan tp lambat. i want my old skin back..xske btul tgk 2 bijik kawah kt pipi.bukan ak xbersyukur dengan apa yang ak ada..tapi after kena chicken pox 3 mmgu lepas. i'm so worried la. and i used vit E BODY SHOP product for almost 2 weeks plus vit E tablets. maybe lama sket effectnye..mybe i need complete set of vit E soon...but i need to save my money first laaa.

pastu ape lagi ak kan.review product tu.then tgk link2 berkaitan ngan product tu, pastu tgk sape yg da pakai, tgk diorg nye page kt FB.search photo terbaru diorg after da guna product tu. mmg xde kje btul ak neh. ngokk!!.

it just soap n tablet. tapi betul ke leh dalam masa 3 minggu??sumer product pon bg janji cmtu tp harammmm xde pon mnjadi., ..mne de nak jd cantek in a short time. da la harge nye mahal jugek..rmXXX (60 tablets) n soap ( rmXX) .omaigod. pokai duet ak kalo beli. xsilap botak..hahahhaha..then ak xpuas hati lg. ak tanya la kat agent diorg, tp die nye penerangan xmemuaskan hati ak. she said, tablet tu mengandung protein gluthathione ape ntah la kan.product dari oversea n xde kelulusan dari KKM.walaupun tablets tu hanya vitamin n protein, tp ade kelulusan dari KKM baru ak percaya sket. pastu ak review lagi la kat penguna yang dah pakai. omaigod. ade yg cakap lepas makan obat tu jadi lawas n byk kali p bilik air laa. kulit makin gebu la. n bla2. betul ke xde side effect? macam tipu je.terigt my patient sbb pakai alat kosmetic die menderita nephrotic syndrome. ak pon xmau la sbb mende cmni ak lak yg sakit.xnak2. hehe. n lastly ak cancelkan niat ak.hahahahha.rugi masa ak jek duk tgk2 product tu dari td. i choose natural way.xperlu la nak gune product mahal2 and mana de product yang leh kasi effect cepat cmtu kalo xde bahan kimia yg dorg tambah. sabar2 emila.hehhehe.

i'm gonna puke

2011-03-06T08:48:00.000-08:00

i feel like i'm goin to puke
stupid cicak..

benci betul.

ketika ak sedang enak berwebcam ngan my sister. then i heard sumting.."pelepak, pelepak"

" amende la jatuh dalam air" then ak sambung lg focus bace paper kt internet.

pastu dengar lg" pelepak, pelepak" tgk bawah meja xde pape.igtkan ak terpijak air.

then xlama lepas tu bunyi lagi, then ak p tgk ade air milo yang ak minum td petang ade tinggal separuh lagi. then ak intai dalam gelas panjang tu. nampak suatu benda jijik bermata dua kaler coklat ..yark !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cicak cicah milo!!! eiiiyark !!!!!!! seyes giler syialll!

ak xske betul cicak neh. air milo pon ko nak try ka !! ceit !!!

need more holidays

2011-03-05T04:22:00.000-08:00

cuti yg best

wlpn cuti 2 hari tp sgttt nikmat

mne pernah dapat cuti 2 hari kan..asek2 ari ahad je cuti..bosann..dpt cuti 2 hari neh..terbaeik laa..

so ktor da plan baik nye ..after abes THT dept..ktorg plan p brastagi n bermalam d' villa brastagi..kt sane..weee..

nice!!'

hilangkan stress b4 masuk new dept...hehe~~

penat~

rewards

2011-02-26T17:17:00.001-08:00

homesickoo ~~!! miss my mummy =.=*

mum always said : If it's your true passion to become a doctor then all of the hard work will be worth it in the end. It is for many extremely challenging, but the rewards are many.have fun with ur jobs , Change your perspective and you will adapt easily.but that's the beauty of it..,,, your life will be different, the training you recieve like none other. So if you are going into medicine for the right reasons, you will find the ride worthwhile.

Success is simple. Do what’s right, the right way, at the right time.

:)amypeMalasMmGnaKknEleMpang!!umo dah 23tp xreti2 lagiii i hate exam,i hate exam, i hate exam, i hate being medical ...kan best blaja je..xyah exam..aaa!!shud i cram for exam?why i choose to be a doctor?I feel stressed out all the time,but i love medicine..if there was no exam..more relax n fun !I left this to last because it's the most important.I don't want a job that I don't believe in,or that I'm only working so that I can make money and retire(not that there's necessarily anything wrong with the latter, if that's your thing).I feel good knowing that in a few short years, someone's going to come to me with serious health problems,and I'm going to be able to make them better-or, at least, I'm going to try my hardest to make them better. I feel good knowing that I genuinely enjoy getting up and going into the hospital every day,even if those days have been starting a bit too early as of late. everyday i need towake up early in da morning, hate diz ..*sigh*

now i'm upper cycle clinical student..but from day to day. i'm always thinking wat shud bring back to malaysia ( my knowledge? skills??? oh damn it's killin me!) and be a good doctor...so scared to think bout diz..how to face stressful life being HO in malaysia after diz....mampukah?

syaitan malas....: haa amy...tdor2....bgs2....

amy: banyak lg xstudy neh...sok exam mampus ak...banyak lg bab xsentuh..bler nk sentuh neh...aiyak!!

syaitan malas....: haa amy...tdor2....bgs2....xyah study lmbt lg...rehat dluu..

amy: asl ak rs penat jek...xwat pape pon penat...tdor ahh japp...ermmm

amy: terover lak tdor...

syatain nak kne lempang: alaaa relax laaa....

amy: ko la asek bergayut kt mata ak jd ngantuk...syushhh!!! kill u!!!

amy : weyhhh !!! sudahhhh!! xyah ///xyah///xyah!! da ckup goda ak neh ...p tmpt lain syuushhhh!!....mmg nak kne lempang !!!

RESCUE ME !

Life Is Simple..But Not easy

To succeed you need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you.

libur???

2011-02-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

libur tu..cuti laa..dgn kata lain..holidays...!!

xde pape nak cter coz cuti hanya 7 hari..org lain p dubai n cambodia...i stay kt umah ja !! hahaha

xdan panas bontot pon duk kat umah..da kne datang sni lagi ..damn!!!

first day sampai ..mmg terbaek...i tunggu my family datang dekat sejam lebih...

sbb xde number malaysia..( maxis or celcom or digi) so i xdapat call my mum...

so tggu la tercenggok kt ctu..so layan p makan ka airport lepak sorg diri..uhuu..

rupanya my bro n sis yang datang..my mum xdtg..coz xdpt nak cuti...biasa la alasan diorg..bgn lambat...mmg xpatut...hahahaha.

lepas tu i trus p beli number celcom baru...then top-up..expired sampai setahun..haaa..

pastu trus p shopping sakan...

sakan ke?? xpon..sbb kapla da pening..igt nak shopping sampai petang...tp xsggup..

sbb semalaman xtdo kt lcct sejukkk oke...

beli brg xbyk pon ..separuh bagasi je..hak3

then...macam biase la duk umah..

ngee...mmg aim xmo p jejln memane nak duk umah je...

so mmg xkuar laa...

n macam biasa kalo musim cuti neh..

kenduri kendara sanak saudara mmg byk..

ade sehari tu..p 3 kenduri kawen..

alamatnya dapur mak i mmg xberasap..

hahahha..pastu ade ikut sanak saudara sebelah nenek...

p belarok ..hahaha...bosannn jugak tp layannnn

pastu perkara yg wajib adalah balik kampung..hak2

walaupun 10 km je...hhhahaha kire balik kg la kan..muhehehe

godek kebun my nenek...tp mmg xde musim buah skank..

salah time balik..hehe

pastu ikut rakan muda nye event..layannnn..kalo x rugi la i masuk ahli kad rakan muda kan..gne gym rakan muda free kt besut..muhehe..free ke? byr rm 5 la..adeihh.

pastu layann event for handicapped person...they are gracious and friendly.

If a person is mainly normal, he or she likes to be treated normally--like anyone else.

kita rasa kte susah...tp ade lagi yg lagi susah dr kite...

evryone have their own chance to live on this earth...

Remember life on earth is temporary

we share wif everyone..

then ikut my cousin p wat photoshoot utk

my aunty nyer bridal ( Iz Bridal) ..

jd photographer sekejap...hahahah....layannnn...

tp photoshoot tu...penuh gambar kak ayu je..mmg xaci btul...

penat photographer...hahhahahha..**adei sila ketuk minah chi poyo neh**

abes sunburn photographer taw layan model gedik sorg neh..muhahahhaha..* k.ayu jgn mare*

iz bridal adalah nama boutique tu...

neh sumer collection from my aunty...

rahimah's bridal collection

sape2 yg berminat leh try search kt FB

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Iz-Bridal/149802635077488 or

type ' Iz Bridal' ...opss terpromote plak..hak2* long!! kasi discount 100% nnty eh !! muahhaha**

1 je mmg xlupa..

i hampir wat rumah i terbakar...

damn !! careless..

masa memasak..then terlupa panaskan kuali n minyak..

p je trus tutup gas..

tetibe api nyala kat dalam kuali..mmg cuak laa..pastu...tetibe api tu terus jd besar sambar cabinet my mum...

prasan mase tu cuak giler..then tindakan paling xley blah...i angkat kuali jatuhkan kebawah without any protection...yea...my thumb n first phalangeal....got burn injury
skank da fobia kalo panas kan kuali duk je kt dapur xmo lari da p tgk tv ka men tenet...

damn careless!!!

dan akibatnya sampai kt airport smlm tersekat masa scan my right thumb xleh detect lama gak ehh...huurmmm

outing wif my BFF...milah n mcna..

lama xjmpe..** ayt poyo je..padahal th neh da brapa kali balik entah**

n kawan2 laen xsempat..heheh

padahal mls nak call or bgtaw diorg da balik..

hehehe...da bosan p reunion..**syhhhhh***

penghabisan my olidays...

sampai je kt medan

trus je datang syial

my bagasi...tersekat lak kt airasia

mmg terbaek laaa..

nothing interesting bout my holidays...

this week ktorg da masuk upper cycle

dapat gak ktorg masuk wlpn pagi tu sangat kucar kacir

alhamdullilah..

kami mulai upper cycle dengan THT tu same la ngan ENT ( ear ,nose & throat dept)...

THT relax je..

jaga pon relax je...best2...

selama 2 hari kat THT...

then ak mula rs perubahan pd diri ak..

ade vesikel...

oh damn !! ak da dapat rasa ak kne varicella

bcoz 2 weeks ago masa kt peads..ak de terime sorg patient varicella

in contangious phase ms tu..

damn !!!

marshmallow was sick !!

i got varicella !!!!!!!!!! DAMN !

skank ak dapat cuti 3 hari

seksa ok varicella..

mula2 sgt gatal...then sgtttt nyeriii skank neh...

malaise, itchy, myalgia, anorexia, pain, headache, "dots"/ vesicles..big smalls..variety sizes,, all over the body, my ugly face , etc

can't imagine what will gonna be happend next =.=*.

oh my Godness..i want my old normal skin back...

* godek nye godek ak nye iphone then terjumpa la gambar...

dak neh la penjahat ......pembawa virus varicella ak dlu...

damn !!! kalo jmpe dak neh mmg ak cekik2..

sbb hang muka kakak jd polka dot....

tik tok tik tok

2011-01-26T04:52:00.000-08:00

I hate being so lazy, I’ll just waste hours online and staring into space,

ak dapat dengar jarum saat yg bergerak kat jam tangan ak * begitu kuat ak dgr jarum neh berdetik..cam jam dinding lak ak rs**

macam lame lg je...
ak rase minggu neh terasa sangat lamaaa..
xtaw kenapa...y?..y?
semmgnya ak dijadualkan exam hari selasa semalam..tapi xjadi..
arini pon ak p awl jam 630 pagi dah bertenggek kt depan poli...
xjadi lagi...so ak da fed-up... sbb menunggu prof datang...woott2..lobang idung die pun xnmpk..da gelap lg ak da sampai...se time ngan pak guard buke gate poli...mantap kan.....
so dapat berita exam ari jumaat...oh prof jgn la garang sgt nnty...
oho..exam n Osce pada hari yang sama..uhu..dugaan betul..
sabar je la..kali ni pn dapat dokter..oh x prof killer lg.kenapa selalunya musti ak?? i almost fed-up wif everything in my life now ! damn it!.dgn kata lain sumer org xmo exam dengan die..so taniah ak dpat lg.......=.=*...ak mmg xpernah bersykur n xpuas hati..

sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menguji pada umatnya dengan kemampuannya..walaupn berat ak rs..tp ak redha....tp mungkin itu yg terbaik untuk ak jua..

Boleh jadi kamu membenci satu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui[Al Baqarah 2:216]

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan ku....
kurniakan lah ak kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat..
kuatkanlah semangatku..menempuhi ujian mu...n hari2 mendatang.
tenangkan lah jiwaku...

call my mummy n lisa..."but don't put a question mark when God decide this to u my dear", go n face it..u can do it, jgn jd macam kanak2 lg..i'm always pray for u..=.=* air mata marshmallow da meleleh when my mum said this, ok sebak ok*...nak bg tisu pon bole......* "tq ..but i'm so stress..kan best if u here for me"
cur-hat....***marshmallow mmg xmalu...act like kanak2 ribena, i'm so sad . i just can't face it alone..i need someone to comfort me n concern bout me...so my mum n lisa always the best listener n motivators***
arini ..ak balik trus pengsan..sbb dah 3 hari tidor ala2 tahik ayam je
tidor stgh jam bangun study...tido lg...bangun jap..study..tidor setgh jam..bgn lg..
so jam tidor dah tunggang langgang..
makin lama makin rasa otak da berkulat..
so kne review lg..
so xde la makin hari brtambah ilmu...samo jo den raso...
xsaba nak balik mesia...
nak peluk n cium my mummy n sister...

take it or leave it

2011-01-10T08:25:00.000-08:00

arini kan ..marshmallow rasa stress sgtt=.=* ! sedey sangat ...

marshmallow rs kan arini bad day

***okeh ak pon rs nak tampar gedik betul..hahahha***

tp seriously...

semalaman xtdo coz oncall kt perinatology * alasan lg**

after case report arinie

dapat rs diri cam sgt bodoh...okeh trimas..krn menyedarkan ak!! yea bgs2!!

ak balik terus tdor..kefenatan n jam segini bru bangun..

lapor p mcD,, n terigt lg hal td!!! damn!

terima kasih doctor sebab wat ak stress arini...tq2!!

ak dapat rasakan penangannya

banyak betul ak belajar tp xapply

dan banyak da lupe

kne tanya sket da menyimpang

ak pon xpaham ape yang ak dah belajar

mungkin begini la ,bler belajar menulis n menghafal shj

" belajar dek,,jgn menghafal saja"

" jangan malas dek,,,ishh..ngak tau loe harus gimana kamu semua, mau jd doctor atau mau jd writer"

" kalo malas dek xdapat apa2"

*** ak rajen xdapat ape2 gak..baik malas**** wakakkaka rajen ke????

" bodoh tp jgn bodoh kali dek"

kalau xreti cr peluang

so xdapat ape2 kt ctu

mungkin malas lebih menguasai diri

bukan malas, tapi selalu cari alasan

bukan rajen sangat, tp selalu berlakon cam rajen, dan rajen yg dapat penat, bukan dapat ilmu

penat je dapat, ilmu xdapat....ak pon xpaham macammane lg..

yg penting skank kuatkan basic2

da bljr dlu kt lec..apply skank.biler lg.

ak pon takut nak mghadapi ms2 akan datang dengan ilmu dlam kepala otak ak cume sejeput!

so meh la kawan kte belajar lg!

cita2 nak tinggi usaha pon kena tinggi..^__^

stress btul ! sakit kapla ak.dan skank ak dah jd insomnia sbb td tidur byk!!

n stress xtaw nak bace ape lg dah

ape nak jwb exam exam jumaat neh ! rs brt sgt kapla !

sighing =.=*

2011-01-08T18:18:00.000-08:00

You’re reaching a point of burn-out

yes!!

Holiday oh holiday, why you still far away from me!!!!!

What a long clinical semester I have now

I have no energy because it’s school, work,hospital,oncall, school, work, hospital, oncall .. never a break. It feels like I’m getting nowhere.

Everything can start to feel pointless if what you’re doing isn’t fulfilling.

Uh, seriously need a break..

bye 2010

2011-01-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

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i just throw away my 2010's calendar

2010 in memory this year has been an extraordinary year for us all.

i think in terms of the day's resolutions, not the year's

Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.

- kami selesai theory year..wisuda

- masuk first dept iaitu phsyciatric dept…

- melalui hari-hari sebagai clinical student.mengenal erti oncall n life seorang doctor..learn a lot of thing,.hectic, fun, best, sedey, etc

- then masuk dept neuro..disaster betul !! hampeh nye xbest sgt...coz ade ppds gile kuasa berlagak...hak2

- then gimul " dental dept...pon lg lepakk

-pastu masuk nutritional dept...bljr gizi2 lepak je..muhahahha

-internal medicine dept bestt...bestt sbb neh plg basic utk jd resident doctor.

-pastu dept cardiology..dept neh best tp kejap je..hurmm

-then masuk dept dermatology

- radiology dept..pon lepak gak santaii je..pagi2 poi makan ns gurihhh,..mato den rs versi hitam putih hari2 tgk foto

-pastu masuk pulmonology dept..

-lastly for end lower cycle...pediatric...so hectic !everyday ade oncall...

- post-test dengan doctor specialist “killer2”..stock paling killer sumer org takut exam ngan die tuh la ak dapat..ak pon xtaw ape buah tulah yg bwk syial ak makan..muhaahha..* mmg xley lupe…dr psychiatric dept ( prof bahagia), neuro dept ( dr kiking midtest- post-test), cardiology dept ( dr maruli Sp Cardiology) , internal medicine ( dr yosia ginting)….tp ak redha je mungkin tu yg terbaik dr Allah SWT " sesunggunya Allah tidak akan menguji umatnya dengan sesuatu yg xdapat ditanggung oleh ummat nya"

- a lots of friend da kawen tahun neh…amir, aina& nik, nick azmawati, n kawan2 yang dh tunang jugak ajah, nahar, jie, waaa…=) * sori lgsg xdpt join korg nye majlis, …hehe**

- my cousin k.na dapat further her PhD at Denver, US...n akhirnya , setelah lama diorg menunggu…my cousin k.na n a.yo dapat anak 1st gegirl…sarah alhena same birthdate with me 27th december 2010..comell

- my sister elisa got probs with IB...n really hope she can go to Ireland this year,..

-my bro dapat futher his study in accountancy.,,really hope he’ll be more serious about his life..n be good son to my mum..

- my younger sister enina got probs when she got MARA kuantan...n byk kesan sedey dak manja sorg neh ngan my mum.4 kali ulang alik p kuantan..penat taw!..hahhaha last2 balik umah..sekolah kt TMS jek..agagga

- walaupun in clinical year ktorg berjaya balik raya tahun neh!! Yeay…still hoping for next holidays..really miss home

- ms dept free jejalan p bukit lawang n air terjun 2 warna..syok abbess!!

- clinical year dapur dah lama xberasap..duet mengalir cam air asek makan kt luar je..hehe

- this year, celebrate my birthday kat medan, selalu dapat je balik celebrate kt umah ngan family n rasa masakan my mum...huuu=.=*

-this year bring me lot of fun n joy, oso realise me a lot about life;family is evrything, dun get ease to believe anybody,Trust no one, Truth is beautiful, without a doubt. But so are lies.Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate...not all thing we want we get, we need to be struggle to achieve something.I have always struggled to achieve excellence.everyone does same thing* One thing that cycling has taught me is that if you can achieve something without a struggle it's not going to be satisfying. .We will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends, time is everything, dun be procrastinate

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts,The great recipe for success is to work, and always work.

Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.

-sbnrnye byk perkara suka duka 2010…tp xdpt nk interprem kt sni summer..hehe

A new year inspires us to change something -get new success and many new reasons to smile.Lose weight. Give more to charity. be a good doctor. be a good daughter. be nice to friends and other people.Mend relationships.saving money. get a new phone. learn a lots of thing. be confident. be vise. hardworking. be mature. etc!!!!

Special memories of all the yesterdays.A bright today with much to be thankful for.A path that leads to beautiful tomorrows.

H ours of happy times with friends and family

A bundant time for relaxation

P rosperity
P lenty of love when you need it the most
Y outhful excitement at lifes simple pleasures

N ights of restful slumber (you know - dont' worry be happy)
E verything you need
W ishing you love and light

Y ears and years of good health

E njoyment and mirth
A angels to watch over you
R embrances of a happy years!

“When you are lonely, I hope you Love!
When you are down, I hope you Joy!
When you are troubled, I desire you Peace!
When Times look empty, I want you Hope!
Have a Happy New Year!”

^__________^

2010-12-27T08:41:00.001-08:00

peace cover gurl EMA @ sofia !!!

27th dec ^__^

sambut besday plg otai

nak gak die update..wlpn penatt!! hehe

arini terbaek jaga 3 org je...jd chief utk diri sendrik.huhu

hehehhe

after balik jaga siang..trus diorg smbut besday i

hehe

terharu!!!!

ssh2kan korg je... da la penat..ngee

my wish tahun neh

tenkiu for my mum!! luv u !!! coz dah lahirkan saya kt dunia neh

n da jaga saya sampai da besar skank....hhehehe

miss my family now !!

smoge tahun akan datang lebih baik...smoge dapat harungi coass neh lg sethn dengan jaya

smoge dapat jd doctor yang baik..n harap diet ak menjadi..asek jd makin gemuk je xske.xske....smoge dapat jodoh cepat hahha..hensem, kaya ,tinggi, macho, bergaya, bijak,baik, pemurah dll.AMIN.....hahahahahah adeiii **doa kena spesifik org kata **

peads 4

2010-12-24T21:19:00.000-08:00

How do you cope with stress?

working as a doctor can be incredibly stressful.

but... honestly tell me that they “enjoy their job?”kalau awak enjoy awak tetap seorang doctor...kalo awak stress pon ..awak tetap seorang doctor..so lebih baik saya enjoy...coz stress develop a lot of wrinkles lines on my face..hehe

As a doctor, you are put in an environment where people are not healthy. You have to work every day in hospitals and hospitals are full of ill people. In other words, you spend the majority of your time in an environment that is the direct opposite to the one in which you feel most comfortable. At any given time, the sickest people in the whole region are right there in your workplace. You’re in an environment when people are so ill that they die. They die every day. You try and help, you try as hard as you can, but they still die. They still die every day. For a person who is most comfortable among the healthy, this sort of environment automatically causes stress. Sometimes great amounts of stress, sometimes so much stress that the doctor can’t cope and ends up having a breakdown .

so need to be so stress

be relax, But how we cope is not really tested until we become doctors.

i'm still in learning session. so learn a lot when i'm not stress. i easily got sick when i'm stress. Most of my good friends are doctors and it really helps having someone to talk to who’s been through the same experiences. Not only that, you also work with much more senior doctors and nurses who’ve been through it all before, you have role models and people you idolise and this all helps you make sense and cope with events going on around you.

From what I’ve seen, having supportive friends and family is probably the thing that keeps most doctors sane.

we're human too..we're not robot. i always do a mistake but i learned from the mistake.Hobbies??..doctors are taking more opportunity to “get away from it all. for me, why not?..i need something to release .go get ur LIFE!!!.

.we are still young. i'm not a person who can only life in a world...when i work i can be serious and focus with my job or enjoy with my work .n when i do have my time for myself i enjoy as everyone does. why u need to compare ur life n ur medicine field..it is too different things. u don't need to add it in ur social life. no need to 'rojak' it. two different things need two different manner and thought.

Its something that ppl outside medicine just dont understand

peads 3

2010-12-24T09:00:00.001-08:00

kembongkan pipi anda

tgkk same tak dengan saya ???

baru abes oncall siang

arini lenggang je

xbyk keje..hehe

bosan gak..

layan dak comel pipi tembam padat gedempol neh

die dah nak balik!!

gigit pipi die n hiris2 wat sate leh kann..hahahhaha

walaupun daus neh suke senyum je

tapi die sangat though kan..xtakut jarum suntik...

rambut die botak pn sebab die menjalani chemotherapy

ALL patients..

kesian kan..kecik2 da sakit dah la comell!!!

nanti anak ak nnty pon ak nak kasi die makan banyak2..biar pipi die jd cam neh..hahhahahah

peads 2

2010-12-23T20:35:00.000-08:00

peads

orang lain cuti christmas..

tapi kami cuti pada nama..kena jaga gak..ngok ngek betul..nak enjoy pon xleh..

sabor je lah..nak jadi doktor sangat kan.nah amek kau!.huk2..* mimpi nak p mickeyland je la..xaci btul dak teganu lan p jejln n makan free..xaci2..ini tidak ADILL**

walaupun jaga kat peads cam bosan sebab banyak kali jaga..hurmm...banyak gak la dapat kt sni..ngee

melayan karenah kanak2...

kesian gak mereka da la kecik2 lagi..da sakit..so banyak masa kanak2 diorg abes atas katil je.

kalo dulu ak... mase kanak2..leh p maen macam2...n ak bersyukur sebab ak xsakit macam diorg..ak abeskan masa kanak2 ak dengan cemerlang!! hahahha * sampai banyak parut2 sebab maen..jeng betul*. kalo dulu ak duk kat kampung..merata rawe p ikut kawan2 p maen ctu n sini ...walaupun kne marah kt mak ak..ak mmg dak degil..selalu je p maen kt sawah padi..sungai ngan kawan2..muhahhaha

tp masa kat peads..tengak dak2 terlantar atas katil..kesian..

ade plak dak beta -thalassemia major perlu routinely blood transfusion every month..hospital macam rumah kedua mereka...patients yang menjalani chemotherapy pon bcoz of ALL and AMl pon ramai..kadang2 oke je..kadang2 diorg gawat sebab senang kena infection, ..sangat kesian mereka neh..plg kesian dak comelll n kecik2 lg..umor 2-3 bulan dah adek sakit sesak..kne nebule selalu...pasal nasal cannule...=.=*

neh sorang patient..hehe..sangat hyperactive

mula ak nampak die berlari2 dengan tiang infus..gagagga

jarang dak kat sini active macam dak neh..sumer duk terlantar ats katil..die neh aktif plak

muhahaha

kelakar!!

die suke bertengek depan pintu bilik die..n suka juga la die kacau nurse2 n kakak2 dokter muda..muahhahhaa

" cewek2..cewekk2""nada miang adek darul..sambil die lambai2 tangan die suh kita p dekat die..

kegemaran die adalah agar2...

so die akan pesan kt sumer org belikan die agar2..

hahahhah

" doc..beli kan ya agar--"

ak wat xtaw je

then die jerit

" belikan ya esok..agar2!!"

then after ak follow-up patient die jerit lagi

" jangan lupa ya agar2"

muhahahaha

senget betul adek neh

masa jaga malam pon die paling active..xngantuk ak melayan dak neh..hak2

kadang2 die tidur jam 3 bru leh tidur tu pon kene pakse dengan mak die...

then sehari lepas..kaki die kne infus..ak rasa saje je nurse pasang infus kat kaki die..supaya die xmengacau orang lain..wakkakaka

kesian duk je ats wheel chair tu

then die pon active gak ats wheel chair

" bang ganteng , kita balap yuk"" ....{ abg handsome,,jum lumba }

ehh..ehh dak neh ats wheel chair pon ade hati nak berlumba lagik..hahhahahha

right here in my heart

2010-12-17T07:34:00.000-08:00

layan lagu delta goodrem

sambil study..eceh!

poyo ja!!

tgk mende dah bljr pon kne bljr lg apekehey lembab otak mu nie emi

kepada adek2 yg nak masuk clinical tu..

review2 ... revision la basic2 tuh

neh tgh review embriology cardiovascular..n heart anatomy

damn!!

bru je abes dept cardiology..lupa lg..

n jgn percaya ayt sape entah bg ajaran sesat..bg adek2 jgn percaya ajaran sesat senior2 kalian neh..

"nnty clinical bljr lg.."

"alaa..wat pe bljr awl2..nnty lupe gak..nnty coass bljr lagi mende same"

" enjoy la mase bljr...nnty bace lupa gak..balik review gak""

kentut hang !! mane de istilah tu...

sbb ak ikut ajaran tuh la...ak abes lupe basic...** kapla otak die lembab padahal, agagga**

tipu2 sumer tu...mne de...kalo basic kuat bru best bljr kt clinical

neh review lg mende sama ..waste my time !!

so study balik la lec notes, physiology, embryology n anatomy b4 masuk clinical

jgn jd cam saya yang pemalas...=.=*

right here in my heart

Sometimes I wanna scream
Sometimes I'm in between
Heaven and Hell
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I feel that I
Can't take it anymore

But right here in my heart
There's a song I sing for you
Right here in my heart
Your love still gets me through
And all I feel
And all I know
We will find another way
'Cause right here in my heart
Is where you stay

I know you're hearing me
I know you're feeling me
Always touching you now
And I don't want to fly
And be right by your side
I'm calling your name

If only you were here now
If only you were here
'Cause you gave me carousels
So many magic spells

I'm missing you now

But right here in my heart
There's a song I sing for you
Right here in my heart
Your love still gets me through
And all I feel
And all I know
We will find another way
'Cause right here in my heart
Is where you stay

And I don't know why
Why I cry
Why I cry
And I don't know when
I will see you again
But I will see you again

'Cause right here in my heart
There's a song I sing for you
Right here in my heart
Your love still gets me through
And all I feel
And all I know
We will find another way
'Cause right here in my heart
Is where you stay

That boy is working you, be careful what you do,
They say he's nothing but trouble with an attitude.
Well, meaning interventions, my friends with good intentions,
Say, "if you don't walk away, girl, you must be crazy".

They don't see through these eyes, they don't feel with this heart,
They don't know what it's like, oh, oh, oh.
They're not kissing your lips, they're not touching like this,
I feel the passion and the fire ignite me.

I don't care what they say, I don't care what they do,
They can lock me up forever, try to stop me loving you.
They tried to keep Romeo and Juliet apart,
Babe, it doesn't matter what they say, I only listen to my heart.

I don't care what they do, nothing's gonna stop me loving you,
I don't care what they say, I'm gonna love you anyway.

Your body feels so right (feels so right), laying by my side,
And if the world should end tonight, baby, I'd be satisfied.
I know you're a better man, I'm sorry they don't understand,
You make me feel like I, like I never felt before.

I don't care what they say, I don't care what they do,
They can lock me up forever, try to stop me loving you.
They tried to keep Romeo and Juliet apart,
Babe, it doesn't matter what they say, I only listen to my heart.

Oh, oh, nobody can tell me how to feel,
Oh, oh, nobody can show me what is real
Oh, oh, words can't change what I know it's true,
Oh, oh, nothing's gonna stop me loving you.

They don't see through these eyes, they don't feel with this heart,
They don't know what it's like, oh, oh, oh.
They're not kissing your lips, they're not touching like this,
I feel the passion and the fire ignite me, ohhh.

I don't care what they say, I don't care what they do,
They can lock me up forever, try to stop me loving you.
They tried to keep Romeo and Juliet apart,
Babe, it doesn't matter what they say, I only listen to my heart.

I don't care what they say, I don't care what they do,
They can lock me up forever, try to stop me loving you.
They tried to keep Romeo and Juliet apart,
Babe, it doesn't matter what they say, I only listen to my heart.

I don't care what they do, nothing's gonna stop me loving you,
I don't care what they say, I'm gonna love you anyway.
I don't care what they do, nothing's gonna stop me loving you,
I don't care what they say, I'm gonna love you anyway.

You will only break my heart

Tell me your thoughts now baby
Tell me what's on your mind
Tell me what's eating you alive
Tell me your darkest secrets
Clear up those stupid lies
Show me what's there behind those eyes

I wanna know cause I can't face another day here in the dark
I'm tired of wondering when we're together baby where you are
Why should I give you everything when you will only break my heart?

You will only break my heart

Tell me your thoughts now baby
Tell me what's on your mind
Tell me what's eating you alive
Tell me your latest story
What will it be this time
Show me what's there behind those eyes

I wanna know why you can't find a way to just let down your guard
I don't believe that love or what we had should ever be this hard
Why should I give you everything when you will only break my heart?

You will only break my heart

All this is too familiar
I think we've been here before
I wish I could believe you
I see you down on your knees

You will only break my heart

marshmallow heart

ngee

marshmallow nak tido

marilah maria meh kita tido!!

ngantuk seyh..sok jaga lg ke??

bosan nek..nek bosannnn!!!!

T_T

2010-12-11T08:10:00.000-08:00

Two hearts, two minds, in time did find one love, one aim two paths the same. Hold fast. . . and love will last...

Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,

Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,

Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,

But only one mother the wide world over

Who ran to help me when I fell,

And would some pretty story tell,

Or kiss the place to make it well?

My mother.

marshmallow really miss her mummy

penat sgt ke?

2010-12-11T06:09:00.000-08:00

ok tipu la kate xpenat

sbnrnye.lgsg xpenat ms oncall

best je..bkn byk keje je

yg penat sbb xdpt nak duduk..kne berdiri je kadang2..

n tidor xcukup

stress hari2 bgn kire owh arini jaga ape eh? malam ke siang?

bgn mase pepagi hari..matahari pon xnaik lg..ayam pun segan2 kucin nak berkokok..ak dh bgn..siap2..nak p hospital.yeay!!

then balik umah kalo jaga siang..sampai dah gelap dah ..xnmpk dah pokok2 hijau...xpon kalo balik awl jam 2 ..tp malam jaga , so tidor la topup tidur..wuuu

rutin seharian kat peads..^_^** xley blah eh..ayt mcm die sorg je kne oncall..muhahahah**

“Whether you like it or not, you’ll be stuck in this profession for at least 20-30 years, so might as well like it, and enjoy it. Kalau kamu “enjoy” pun kamu seorang doktor, kalau kamu tak “enjoy” pun kamu tetap seorang doktor, baik enjoy kalau macam tu, daripada terseksa emosi dan mental.”

no pain , no gain

kalo tiada kata motivasi dari mak, adek2 , keluarga n teman2 lain,

susah ak nak realise bahwa ak dah jauh kat bidang medic sekarang.

begitu juga i always read smthg about medical field

baru la ak xrasa menyesal

terbaca satu article yang " senyumlah dan brsyukur anda dipillih seorang doctor"

- petua2: kawal emosi masa kne marah dgn MO/ppds.specialist , anggaplah seperti di dalam hadith yang kita pelajari, orang yang tak dapat mengawal marah itu adalah selemah-lemahnya manusia. Satu lagi, bagus juga kene marah, dapat belajar. Tak apa kena marah asalkan pesakit kita selamat. * lbh baik dr kutuk MO dalam hati..aish ape la org neh...kan marah2 je keje..xkan period sepanjang bulan kott...xpon neh musti gaduh ngan bini neh***

- oncall yang memenatkan..* jgn doakan..mintak2 patient xde yang masuk masa ak jaga....bak kate doctor specialist jantung dlu " seorang doctor yang bagus..doctor yang ade skill dan pengalaman yang banyak..camne nak dapat tu..kne la rajen...jangan la time oncall mintak2 xde patient datang...oncall setakat oncall je..baik tidur kt umah" no pain no gain..

- susah nak bersama family masa HO...hurm memang xdinafikan...busy nak xde mase kan...balik penat trus tidur.xyah tggu HO skank pon ak da rase...gile babeng nye penat..td ak tdor ..malam ak ngantuk lg..so biler nak study????..bagi yg dah kawen tu tyr la cr umah dekat2 nga spital ..leh la balik kejap2 jumpe isteri n anak2...xpon ak rasa..mase HO, ssh nak bg komitmen pada 2 hal yang berbeza...so lbh baik laa focus pd satu benda shj muhahhaha..

- MO ramai garang..adei yanaponeiii!! asl la nak garang2..lepak2 sudeh..macam la ko dlu bijak sangat kuar2 medical school dh reti sumer..ajar la slow2..ko igt ko garang ak respect ka?..poyo je lebih ..muhahaha

ko dlu pon student medic gak ..n kite lak jgn la makan hati banyak sgt MO macam ppds..leh x anggap cmtu skank..hehe..Kalau MO/ppds tersebut kuat marah, dialah selemah-lemah manusia. Kita patut bersyukur tak menjadi seperti MO/ppds tersebut. Tapi kena ingat juga, kalau memang kita yang salah, ambilah pengajaran.

- ramai org kagum dengan kerjaya dokter..tp ak pon pelik kdg2 sbb penat sgt..leh ade yang terbgn lmbt..smbhyg pn lambat..kadang2.kdg2 sembahyang pn asl dan/ sempat je..xkesah tmpt tu xselesa sempit n kotor ke ramai org...ade satu situasi lebih kerja dari kdg2 bende cm neh wt kehidupan sesorang tunggang langgang..so bergantung la pada individu tu..arrange masa dengan lebih baik, xde la brgntg kt org je..kalo orang lain bleh kite pon bleh..yeah!

tapi jangan lah menyesal..kenapa ak nak jadi doctor..sepatutnya tukar ayt tu ..kadang2 kite leh pkir..kenapa Allah pilih kita utk jd doctor?..mgkin itu adalah yang terbaik untuk anda...so pikir2kanlah...mgkin ade hikmah disebaliknya ^_^

chaww dluuu!!!

peads

marshmallow nak p study la..ehem3

blunder

2010-12-08T05:15:00.000-08:00

Dude, it's not your fault. No, it is my fault.

It's not my fault that your

No, it's not my fault. - How is it not your fault?

When you blame yourself, you learn from it. If you blame someone else, you don't learn nothing, n how people blaming me when it is not my fault?

To find a fault is easy; to do better may be difficult. do it so well that no one could find fault....

Assert your right to make a few mistakes. If people can't accept your imperfections, that's their fault.

everyone have a dreams..what do u know it is ur dreams would be better then anyone?

everyone have their reason to choose their way of life. resident doctor would be better.

everyone have their own goal. :suka sangat ayat my doctor today : "balik blajar ya dik, masa baca buku baca, masa main facebook maen facebook, masa tengok wayang tengok wayang, masa twitter ..twitter..masa baca buku baca..jangan campur2..intinya be focus !!! "

stop dreaming friends...but choosing specialties just too early n silly step to do it now ..focus ur goal first...n if not u are missing ur point to be a doctor. no one have same interest with u. As for me, i just like to choose a very comfort zone which i can deal with.it is not just a resident doctor. i don't like stress. why u choose to be stress when u draw a lot of lines on ur face ! get over it !

medicine is a very competitive field/ profession. I also understand that many times, the people in question mean no harm and are simply blowing off steam in what they percieve to be a safe environment. I think keeping your mouth shut is as legitimate an option as speaking your mind freely.I recognize that not everyone sees things the same way I do, and that my working life will be filled with experiences just like the ones I've described. I will have to work with people that I don't always agree with. But, in my working life, I hope I'm in a position to approach these sorts of situations in a collegial, professional-to-professional manner. What bothers me now is that at this point in my career, I am on nothing like equal footing with anyone I work for. There is an explicit heirarchy that separates us and makes it, if not impossible, then inadvisable, to speak up.

speak up or just shut up !!

marshmallow feel sick to people like diz

marshmallow dun like them

they're so selfish !

peads weee=.=*

2010-12-06T15:18:00.000-08:00

hari ni da masuk peads..

so xde la byk nak cter..sbb masuk hari pertama dah ade oncall siang...so dr pg td dah penat ke san ke mari uruskan pasal daftar...ptg kne jaga lak dari jam 2 sampai 8 malam..penat tuh xleh nak cakap la.start dari pagi td ..kan org baru..so byk la briefing2 dlu b4 nak masuk ward..ape yg perlu dilakukan..macam relax je peads neh eceli..n paling penat adalah oncall..biasenye dept lain oncall hanya 11..16..15..xbyk laa...tp kt peads...ktorg kne oncall 31 hari damn !!!! lama tuhhh..

then pembahagian ,, ktorg 8 org masuk bagian non infection...a bit busy coz ramai patient.

pastu pembahagian patient...skank i dapat sorg patient dengan diagnosa AML(acute myelogenous leukemia... very rare case AML wif hepatosplenomegaly )) + severe malnutrition + OMSK....pastu ak p jumpe patient..dak kecik tu baik je..n family die pon oke la talkative n ske bertanya..ak bru masuk arini de da tanya macam2..ak pon xikuti lg pasal patient neh die da tanya macam..so ak just explain apa yang ak tahu je la. lagipun tu hak patient utk tahu tentang condition anak die...=)

dekat peads neh..ramai kanak2 yang sakit...so they aren't at their best..ade la yang tgk org pkai baju putih je..trus nanges..padahal xmo bg injection pon...pastu ade yang hydrocephalus..kesian da la comell...eceli ramai sangat patients..n mostly sangat kesian.

time oncall..hurmm..busy la jugak..follow-up sumer patients..ade yang kne blood tranfussion kne bagi pre-medication dlu...allalllala..pastu yang penat adalah berdiri..sbb xde kerusi..xleh lepak kt RP nanty kne cop curi tulang..penat kot berdiri ja..kadangleh duduk...hurmm...semalam plak xsempat nak makan tghari..so memang la perut berkeroncong da..hahha

sedang duduk2 siap kan status..ade patients yang dah sihat sket datang dekat2 nak maen kot....mungkin bosan kot kt katil je..budak la katakan.

then mase kne follow-up patient ..dak2 kat sni baik2 je..wlpn diorg sakit diorg masih bleh senyum..macam sorg patient neh..menghidap blood cancer dan skank menjalani chemotherapy..so biase la side effect nya tu yang paling nampak rambut rontok ( rambut gugur)

budak nie comel sangat ,, tp rambut da sket botak..tapi die still periang je orgnya..

tadi pon ade patient yang gawat..die cyanosis dan da ards..RR 40x/i TD still oke ...but her face n extremities da biru..her breath loke aike cheyne stokes ..sgt kesian her family asek nanges2..da ktorg gantian ..ak kne stay ctu 45 menit..mmg penat berdiri je..pastu cek vital sign Tulus every 15 minutes...do suction but a bit susah....my back-bones da rs cam nak patah* emila mmg hyperbola** penat...masa stay kt ctu leh lg pkir..kan best kalo xyah bawak motor ..penat nye..kaki xmampu da nak tahan bawak motor n perjalanan ke rumah amek masa 20 menit..bayang2 katil pon berlayar2 kat otak ak mase tu...owhh lupa plakkne tgk si Tulus..kesian Tulus..i hope die dpat cepat2 masuk PICU..so tindakan lebih maximum..

best gak di peads sebenanrnya..ye ke.. ntah la...mase nak buat pemeriksaan kat kanak2 kat sni ade yg baik je..n ade lak kne pujuk dlu ...huhu.macam2 ragam..mungkin neh hari pertama aku...so leh layann lagi..ughh..flu xabes2 lg..penat seharian ak rs.berbungkus2 tisu ak abes..na tercabut da hidung tenyeh tisu..hahhaha cepat2 la flu sehat..

peads is very important to me..it was a basic to be a resident doctor.

k caiyok2 peads!!!!

marshmallow bunny rasa cam nak sambung tido!!! hari ni kan cutii..weee~~~

=.=*

2010-12-04T15:40:00.000-08:00

marshmallow got sick again..=.=*

semalam lepas pegi majlis kawen abang kak muq... ktorg makan dengan hebatnya..sgt best!! banyak pilihan mee ayam, ade murtabak, ade apam tambah kuah manis..nasik rendang n bla2...pastu pulang dengan kenyang hati gumbira...

...da la ujan..sejuk sangat..dalam kete pon econ straight kne ak...sejukkkk sangat tambah dengan hari ujan..penat seharian xhilang lagi..pastu terus ke rumah kak muq yg mengambil masa dekat 1 jam lebih...jao kan...da la sejuk2 balik trus xmandi..trus tukar baju..n tidur...!!

nah amek kao!!

arini bangun pagi2 jam 3 pagi...rasa cam xley bernafas.oh yea..my nose blocked..rs cam tonsilitis lagi sakit tekak..sakit menelan. damn..aaaaaaaa...xske !padan muka brapa kali ko nak sakit dlm sebulan amy ..ah penat la cmnie. dlu bkn mcm nie pon..ak mmg susah nak sakit.biasenya dek 4 org kt umah tu selalu berbagi2 sakit..lepas wawa..ema..pastu kennay..pastu mirah..hehe..tp ak selalu terselamat...tp skank sejak vitamin ak dah kehabisan stock sbb dah lama xbalik mesia...lemah btul sistem imun kau !!.sy perlukan vitamin sekarang !

bersin2 banyak kali..lelangit rase gatal sangat n kemerahan...badan lak rasa seram sejuk...

then tisu berhelai2 atas katil...waa xtahan..i got flu, fever n tonsilitis again.. again..

da la luse nak masuk pediatric..brapa kali dlm sebulan nak demam neh??? dah2 la tuh..i need my vitamin now !! dah la nak masuk pediatric luse

bangun pagi hari ni..trus bersihkan dri..sbb mmg dah xley tidur..sakit kapla doe.

bagun terus kemas bilik.sbb bukan prinsip ak demam tidur..lg sakit kapla kott..

then..chat ngan my sister jap.rindu !...die pon bangun awl jugak.sepatutnya i perlu call my mum..tp i takut la, sbbmy mum da tau cerita pasal my scoot aritu..nnty my mum xnak bg i bawak scoot lg...muhehhe..so lain kali saja..gagagga...i really wanna go home now !! home sweet home...

**dan skank masih tunggu kedai aunty next door bukak..i nak beli nasik gurih ..laporr la..demam pon kne makan nak cepat sembuh,,,tehehe**

tolongla menjauh

2010-12-01T08:12:00.000-08:00

To avoid criticism , do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.

seigt ak masa ak mula2 berkawan..ak akan perkenalkan diri dlu.masa sekolah tadika dlu.

" nama saya emila...nama awk?"

" awk tggl kat mane??"

" jum la kte bace ABC neh..paktukita warna2 kartun kepala besar neh..then kte hantar kt ckgu. as siap kte p maen nak?"

haaa..pandai kan sy berkawan..hahahahha

mase sekolah rendah

" hai..saya emila...nama awk??"

" awk kelas same ngan kite eh??..nnty kte men sesame eh?"

" dalam kelas kte duk sebelah awk eh?"

mase sekolah menengah, igt lg..ak sekor tercampak kat sekolah tu.gang2 ak ramai p sbp..g mrsm..g sekolah agama...

ms orientasi cr kawan baru

" hye..name saya emila...awk?

" awk dr sekolah mane??"
" nnty pasnie kte p kantin sesame eh?"

hahahhahha

adeiii

then baru tanya byk2 pasal kawan baru. baik2.ak juga selalu memlih kawan. kawan mana yang lebih sekapla.tuh la yg paling bertahan lama. kawan suka lawan ak, selalu je bertingkah pendapat so baik ak menjauh buat gaduh je.kawan makan kawan so lebih baik menjauh.kalo kawan men tepuh2 bahu je. mmg xkekal so jgn buang masa. kawan siber banyak tipu pon jangan buang masa. kalo mau berkawan biar la ikhlas, kan2.

tyme xde internet dlu..pkai kawan penpal

" hye, my name is emila. i'm from malaysia"

"i get ur adress in a magazine. i like korea so much!"

paham ke dak korean tu surat ak dlu???

kawan siber ( tp biase org yg nak berkenalan ngan ak...busan btul)

" hye leh kenal"

" leh...tp kan xnmpk muka..tp jgn bg gmbr tipu..tipu tu dosa"

" xla..nnty dlu... ***then kalo beralih tanya2 pasal lain...sembunyi2..link FB pon xkasi...kalo mcm nie kompem tipu..xhensem !)

so delete ja !hahhahahhaha

masa dah dewasa

skank bkn dh dewasa ke???

xtaw la..macam mane eh??

mgkin macam nie

" salam. saya emila.

" saya keje kat hospital ------"

"awak kje kat mane?

" gaji brape?? ** leh tanye ke?? bangang!*

" dah ade kete blum? rumah? bini?"

hahahhahahahhahhahahhahha sengal !

ak busan...sebenanya dah abes paru...

tggu masuk pediatric

wah scary

nak enjoy2 dluuu~~weee

banyak hak terjadi minggu neh

so lebih baek bersihkan kapla otak ak yg serabut..

exam pon dah abes...!! yeay!!

tggu nak berjoli ja..aishh

The worth of character.

2010-11-27T01:52:00.000-08:00

just wanna share..an update through diz article..i'm just copy n paste diz article ^_^

Friends are people whom we turn to when our spirits need a lift.

A friend should always be caring towards you. He or she should take interest in your problems no matter how big or petty your problem may be. A friend should be able to sit beside you and encourage you to keep your chin up even when everyone else is against you.

Apart from that, a friend should be an honest person. An honest friend will dissipate any worries that he or she is lying towards you. A friend’s honesty will enable you to trust his or she’s opinion when it comes to telling you the truth about yourself.I've learned that the tendency to lie is pretty common for most people so I don't sweat the small stuff and have learned to really appreciate the honesty when I do get it - no matter how bad. And, I make sure that I don't lie to other people cause I want them to know me for who I really am. don't lie to your friend.Also, no matter what, are you prepared to handle the truth?honesty is da best policy. everyone who lie to me, i never apologize them and just delete them from my friends list. it is no use to have a friend like them.

Picking a friend is not a task that is as easy as the dictionary makes it seem; if u go by the dictionary definition you can just grab a hat, write names on a paper, and start finding friends. Nobody wants to just be “that friend,” by that friend I am talking about that friend who u know each others name but the relationship is no deeper then a puddle in the parking lot after a slight drizzle, everybody has a unique personality that shines through when you get to know a person and become “friends.” Not only does your friend need to be a good listener, you have to be one as well. If you decide you’re not going to listen your friend most likely wont feel comfortable in confiding in you and your friendship will dwindle and last shortly, like a poorly tended fire.

Everyone looks for different qualities when it comes to picking their friends. For me, i really not a picky person. Webster defines a friend as someone who is attracted to another by affection or esteem or, one who is not hostile. I know multiple people who I am not hostile towards, nor are they hostile towards me, but I still don’t consider them a “friend,” as Webster states they are. I consider a friend to be someone that can keep my secrets and not tell a soul what I have confided in them, a secret is something shared between me and a true friend, not an acquaintance that Webster is making the term “friend” into. They are somebody who you never fight with and if there is a fight its over something fun and is just making you laugh, they are a person who will help me when I’m down and rush to my side if anything happens.

Moreover, a friend should be generous both emotionally and knowledge wise. A friend who is generous ought to be able to connect with you and provide emotional support. He or she should also be generous when it comes to sharing knowledge. A true friend must be ever-ready to help you when you are inept in certain subjects. A friend can easily guide you towards understanding the subject matter better as he or she is often on the same page as you. The only difference is that you can’t quite grasp the content of the page per se.

Besides that, a friend must also be able to humour you. Humour plays a quintessential role in making your day more lively and enjoyable. Friends who pull your leg and mess about will...

The value of time.

2010-11-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

skank dah masuk mggu ke 4 di respiratory n pulmonology dept

dan mggu depan adalah exam week..

it will be a long week

ughh stress berat..

ape pon xpaham lg..

ak xmcm diorg

diorg rajen

diorg pandai

baca skali je da paham

n ak xmacam diorg

ak rasa tggjwb ak sgt bsr..sumer org pon rs cm tu..mgkin.

sbb..hurmm...xpe biar ak simpan sendrik ape ak rs..

best juge bljr dekat paru..

at least..kalo dlu kt radio xreti bace foto..kuar radio pon masih xreti bace foto thorax

tapi at least kt paru

leh tgk foto thorax n tgk patient skali..lg berkesan dr tgk foto thorax je..sbb blajr jd lebih menarek..yumm2...plg byk tuberculosis disease..pneumonia..lung cancer..mediastinum cancer..pleural effusion..pneumothorax..ughhh!byk la kne bace..waaaaaa..takot nak exam. nak balik minggu ke2 plzz...uhu

selama kat wad respiratory&pulmonology dept neh..byk leh bljr..dr prof , specialist n ppds, and ppds plg kelaka abes abg andika..mmg la sgt kelaka die neh. hak2.

dan plg best adalah oncall..hah..tipu..xbest pon..tp trpaksa la kan..

smlm ak oncall lg tp tu oncall terakhir kt dept ini..lepas nie menyusul byk lg oncall di pediatric..

smlm xde patients baru..so xde la kje byk..nebule n jg wad je la eh..

patients kt paru ntah la..mmg manja kott..xley tidur pon nak ngadu..

so sbg doctr yg baik..ehem2..trpkse la pjuk diorg...n sedapkan hati diorg spy diorg leh tidur dgn lena ..hahahha..mentang2 doctr yg jaga neh comel2..hak3 * perasan3..tulun*

nak jugak ak nyanyi lagu aserehe nnty diorg neh kan..hahahhaha

xde la biasa la patients.sumer doctr ckp bru nak ikut..

sdg syok ak belek buku sekepam bajet nak study..gang..gang2..nurse ketuk pintu..

"doc, itu pak ismail itu di kamarIII3 sesak n ngak bisa tidur dia..."

" ya. kamu bilang ajalah...tidur aja pak..naik kan sket oxygennya itu..bapak itu kan saya udah resepkan dexamethasone..kalo dia mgadu lg..suntik dexa nya ya..."

" doc, dia ngak mahu kami yg ngomong dia mahu doctr juga"

eceh...adeihhh..

so trpkase la kami pegi . pujuk dia tidur ..amek blood pressure sket.berlakun..kasi tenang sket..kata tensi die oke je..pastu katil sebelah plak demam..nak jugak kami kasi obt turunkan suhu die...pas makan..then bru tidur..alahaiii...manja2 betul patients..

n kebykn patients kt ward paru neh..bole dikatakan 50% adalah lung cancer and mediastinum cancer...dan ade lak patients yang mmg dh dekat last stage.patients need to know bout their condition...n pasal penyakit die...we need to explain. ramai patients xdapat terima tentang penyakit mereka.kami bkn hanya mengobati tp juga bg sokongan moral, bg patient paham bhw penyakitnya itu ssh diobati n dekatkan diri pada Yang Maha Esa...bak kata abg andika" doctr disamping jd penolong, kite juge bole jd 'ustaz'. sumer ilmu tu kite xdpt dalam buku...tu berdasarkan pengalaman dan juge keperluan wajib bg seorang doctr".

The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

fiuhhh=.=*

2010-11-14T06:54:00.000-08:00

hari ni.after balik dr oncall. ak ketidoran sampai xsedar dri smpai petang.
hahaha. ajaib bangun igt dh pagi. cuak je.igtkan dah lambat..rupenye bru petang.huhu.
itu la penangan oncall yang terus menerus 3 hari. ngecorrr! penat kot.
malam jaga , esok ak akn bising sakit situ sinin suh kawan urut. sbb ak xleh tidor.
then malam semalam jaga.ak tidor dengan hebatnya sampai xsedar. wlpn 2 jam tiod tp tidor tnpe dikacau oleh mimpi. so heaven !!
hahaha. tp oncall pagi lak penat. pastu je dah abes siap keje ak tidor je..hahha
mmg arini keje tidor je.
then after abes oncall..balik rumah terus tido...smpai petang. uishh emila.bgs!
xske oncall. bilik ak cam tongkang pecah. pastu sbb tidor xckup.muke mcm mayat idup. aiyo !

then, malam tunggu wawa balik...chatting dengan dak kecik comel neh.
aaa..rindu2 Nelly ~~ biase la tu. kat umah ak mne de adek kecik..so mai je anak org kecik yg ske maen byk ckp cmnie, baik comel , gedik cm nelly neh sumer ske..mmg la...tp kalo yg ske nanges...duk luar je la eh..xde org nak layan.
ya mmg bkn adek ak pon..tu anak kawan mak ak..selalu die mai umah ,dr kecik smpai dah banyak cakap mcm skank neh. pot pet pot pet. gedik lak tu. geram2.

si nelly neh ske amek gambar..so xpelik la hp ak penuh gambar die..asl ak balik je.

k.emi amek gambar nelly..pastu die posing..k.mi cmni..pastu cmni..penat ak layan dak neh.

k.emi amek la video * sambil bhs telo nye* nelly nak nyanyi jamilah gigi jongang..jongang2..hahaha..adeiii

never turn back

2010-11-06T05:06:00.001-07:00

i called my mum after my exam
i'm so stress. it mess me up.

dear,u're not in kindergarten anymore
=.=*

read diz in an article

Never regret of what you are doing now, Medical Students…
Isn’t this your school-age AMBITION?
Yer cikgu, saye nak jadi dokter. Saye nak bantu orang sakit.
Wasn’t that your kiddy answer?
Yes, you wanted to be here. Yes you are.
Think! Think back.

Its not easy to get you here. Yes, here. How many years had you struggled to get you in this profession. You are now half-step distance to become a doctor. Never turn back.

I do believe that my life has been planned by Allah. Why am I here? Because Allah had planned for me to be here. Ouh, I need to find the hikmah behinds these. Allah knows what is the best for His servants.

Never let negative thought under estimate yourself, your capability. If other doctors who can do it, why not you? WHY NOT YOU? Of course there is NO SHORTCUT to be one. A consultant. You think it is easy to become one? They also had struggled through tough years to be one. Yes.

Every king was once a weak baby, and every awesome building was once just a drawing on a piece of paper. And you? THINK!

Jadi dokter, satu pekerjaan yang mulia. Yes, doctors playing God. But yet, everything happen dengan IzinNya. Saving lives, isn’t that mulia? Imagine you save someone’s life or making someone to have a better quality of life. And that person able to beribadat and do good things because you’ve helped that person. Don’t you think “saham pahala” gets to you? Allah knows.

What other profession yang the customer really trust the person? None can beat doctor profession. So, use this opportunity to dakwah as well.

stupido loser

2010-11-06T03:22:00.000-07:00

such a bad day

post cam hancoo

xtaw la cmne result

n xsalahkan sape2

salahkan diri sendri

kerana sgt bodohhh

=.=*

benci jadi bodoh

n pelupa

i'm not in da mood

i think it's stress

radiology dept

2010-11-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

menci gambar neh rusak...padahal sgt smart gambar neh..

hahah poyo itu perlu..

korang tgk ape??? cm xbuke je lg USG tu.hak2

berlakon itu perlu

specialist radiologist sebelah kiri gambar...

kanan tlg letak foto jek..hak3

best juga radiology ni.hehe.sebab doctor specialist tu cakap, gaji die lumayan.hehe.yeah!.saya mmg mata duitan.kesian tgk doctor tu, ke sana ke mari sbb kerja kat banyak rumah sakit.permintaan ramai.xsangka radiologist pon kaya eh.bagian radiology penyumbang kedua terbanyak untuk satu hospital.xsangka.tgk la tetiap hari dari berbagai pelusuk departement hantar film, CT scan,USG, untuk dibaca.lenguh gak mato den tgk hitam putih tuh.kami tgk je la kan.masih belajar lg kan.doctor kat radiology pon best.lepak je.xde stress.lgpun banyak permintaan juga.tapi satu la hari2 bace film, USG, CT scan. penat gak n perlu skill yang tggi membezakan mana normal mana abnormal. oh anatomy lg. byk penyakit plak kne tahu.hahaha.bukan macam tu ke sumer?.mane de senang.hurmm.ugh=.=*....mula2 da mengeluh.

masuk list la radiology neh bleh: 1st gaji lumayan, 2nd xyah ade oncall, 3rd xyah dgr patient merungut, 4th balik awal.hahahhaha.

=.=*

2010-10-31T08:17:00.000-07:00

huh.sungguh syial arini. pon masih sempat tulih blog.

dari pagi td study untuk lapkas.huh.cari2 gambar untuk MRI nephrolithiasis xjumpa.mybe xmgkn kot org dapat nephrolithiasis nak MRI giler ke ape.buang duet da la mahal.wat plain foto dahhh, xpun IVP.kan.kan.

pastu nak buka slide yang simpan kat pendrive.pendrive lak masuk virus celah mane ntah.abes file2 ak.pastu tetibe laptop ak jd lembab gilerrrr bab*.ak pkir msti sbb pendrive tu.cehs.

akpon try la donlod antivirus.error.pastu try lg error .penat den tunggu.pastu ak putus asa.try antivirus online.tggu donlod.pastu tubik besor2 ye kabo ERROR.ha ye ak paham la.error kecik2 dah la.

ak wat la kje slide sebab xleh bukak kan.sambil chat kawan2 segroup.anto keje kt email.kumpul2 nama pasien da siap taip 100 org.tetibe ak pon penat cam nak tido.so ak off lappy.

tidor kejap, bgn, on lappy. DAmN !!!! .ape jd neh..kuar biru je.on off.on off.cehs. musti kje viurs dr pendrive td neh.xpon pasl duk donlod antivirus cam haram td asek error.

cam syial je.ak terpaksa la format laptop.aaaa.penat.ak pon format la laptop..benci btul !!!

nasib reti da skank format.wlpn window cikai.bole la utk wat keje n maen2. kan.kan.tetibe teringat nama pasien yang ditaip 100 org sebelum nie.xprint lg n xde soft copy pon.damn!!! taip lg.n slide td pon terpaksa buat lg.damn!...

study utk exam pon xlagi.hurmmm.

♥||ıʇs pooʇs ǝʌo|☻

2010-10-30T16:07:00.000-07:00

oh tipu.entry kali ini tak berkaitan langsung dengan tajuk.huhu.ak bangun pagi2 hari sebab.ak dah xleh nak paksa mata ak lg untuk tidur.so ak bangun. ak rasa ak ketiduran awal smlm.abes plan ak nak kemas bilik & lipat baju yang membukit kt sudut tepi bilik ak.lepas je makan tomyam tu.kekeyangan.ape obat tidur mungkin dlm tomyam tu * padahal makan banyak,xnak ngaku!*. pagi ini bangun, lapa lg.so panaskan tomyam. makan lagi.

semalam, bershopping di petisah.oh macam biasa duet akan mengalir macam air sungai.ceit. abes plan i nak berjimat cermat.ade je nak beli.ish , pompuan. lepas neh ak puasa la.hahaha *saya byk plan, tp tak terlaksana, byk sgt godaan.tehehee*.

dan mggu lepas,terdapat 2 kejadian bencana alam dekat indonesia ni.Alhamdulillah,thanks God.we are save because we are in medan.dan ak pon lupa, ak patut sediakan grab bag. siang nanti ak pasti kena p beli beg baru untuk grab bag.hanya untuk persediaan, persediaan itu perlu.i can't imagine if something bad happened to me here, pls don't.

sok da masuk minggu ke-4 di radiology.uh.exam week.banyak xbaca.n xpaham.layan je la.lapkas pon xstudy lg.adeh.ape nak jadi dengan kamoo neh amy??.

seperti kata Dr.Henny Specialist radiology pada group kami, kamu mesti semangat belajarnya dik, saya ngak mahu kamu ngak dapat apa2 di radiology ini, nilai di buku itu tiada gunanya bagi kamu sebagai doctor, saya pon dik, dulu nilai saya ngak tinggi kali, tapi yang penting apa yang kamu dapat masa ko-ass, grab byk2 ilmu n skills, ini itu yang berharga yang dapat kamu guna masa kamu menjadi doctor nanti." dat's was so true, .QUALITY STUDY MATTERS N NOT QUANTITY STUDY

No difference

2010-10-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

Be thankful and stop comparing

Be thankful that you don't already have
everything you desire. If you did,
what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary,
because it means you've made a difference

Be thankful for who you are, despite of how you looK, be thankful for what you have as Allah SWT has given you what is best for you, be thankful and stop comparing yourself with what other people have and feel enough with what you have will make you the richest person on earth..

Stop focusing on the physical (the look) and start perfecting your heart (manners). Thenyou will result in tranquility, trust me. Oh Muslims! We are all beautiful because we are Muslims. Beautiful by the way of Islam sees us. Beautiful by the way of Islam shapes us.Beautiful in a way Allah and his messenger wanted us to become to.

So I will say...

"You and I are beautiful. No difference..."

Because you and I are the same,
Sharing a very common thing,
Sharing the same beauty of Islam,
Sharing Islam and that we are all Muslims.

Islam is beautiful. Therefore, we are all beautiful, insha'Allah...

why.

2010-10-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

i always stories to my mum about my life here. and people here. first time i studied here, i always merungut dan kata macam-macam kat tempat ni and setelah lama disini tambah lagi kesusahan belajar selama ni buat aku terlupa yang aku ke sini untuk menuntut ilmu dan menuntut ilmu tu perlukan keberkatan. Kalau aku sendiri tak redha hidup kat sini, macam mana aku nak dapat ilmu tu? Aku belajar menerima hakikat dan lebih bersabar. and ask myself why i'm here.

i learnt a lot of thing about life.be patient and independent. true life here. some people are too rich and some people are homeless. here, it is my study place, so i not telling bad about my study place. when riding motorcycle, at a corner we always see and staring at homeless people. then i was thinking what they eat in a tank full of rubbish.Really sorry for them,brings tears to my eyes most of the time.

Some people live luxury and some in streets. They dont have food, clothes or shelter. nobody’s there to help them. Is there any hope for poor people?I think its not fair that some people have natural talents while others dont…It breaks my heart to see homeless people on the side of the road or see dirty people walking on side of street... but see the most luxurious cars drive by. It really makes me sad. so we call it life. not all homeless people are bad, they are bad for a reason.don't be so quick too judge others unless they have walked the line in there shoes.Never judge homeless,before this , i see those things in TV…n now i'm in medan ...Its make me feel so bad....And all i could watch it..I feel helpless...when they come to us, not only are homeless people unsightly and smell bad and come to us ask for money sometimes they are so annoying the way they act. but it is never wrong if we gave them a bit, at least kita dapat kurangkan sedikit dari penderitaan mereka.

feel sleepy....it just a post ,true deep in my heart.

find some peace deep down in my soul thanks God dat was true kind-hearted in meteheehee

totally make me thankful to God, coz i'm so lucky coz tidak dilahirkan sebegitu dan bersyukur apa yang ada.

sok kne p spital lg.so lh baek sy tido skank!ne,annyeong jumuseyo!!♥|♥|♥|

beauty is pain

2010-10-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

girl's day out.going out.eating out.having fun.

hasil dari gerai aritu so banyak. kami keluar makan sedap2.yummy!.hasil titik peluh dan usaha kami.ceh poyo kan. sebenarnya thanks kepada pembeli samada yang kena paksa atau memang suka rela.muhahahha. sebenarnya xde la untung sangat tp yg penting pengalaman n kami gumbira pada hari itu.yeay!.tempah ikan gedabak 2 ikan gurami..yummy2!!.xsampai 10 menit da licin. korang memang monster.hahaha. dan selepas tu window shopping. girl's day out. me, aimi n jijah beli lens baru. ak saje je nak try. seperti orang kata beauty is pain. baru je ak keluarkan statement bukan prinsip ak beauty is pain. hahaha.then baru ak rasa. punye susah nak pakai lens neh. menangis2,berjurai2 air mata maria.haha.tapi lepas tu da biasa da.

arini p hospital dengan mata baru.hahah.mata plastic.

out of sudden

2010-10-20T05:50:00.000-07:00

i’ve been so moody these last couple of days/ weeks it’s making me feel so bad.

i mean i dont know what’s causing it but the very little things get me old fired up.

i hate feeling this way, i really hate it.

i mean i think people are already beginning to despise me or something!

Though I have always known I was moody… my friend shoving the fact in my face made me incredibly concious of it. i'm so sorry. out of sudden, i just wanna stay alone in my room n talk less.

I feel so guilty for my moodiness because I realize that

the people around me suffer more for my moods than i do.

Whenever something doesn’t go my way, no matter how small, I throw a fit like a child.

Sometimes loud and obnoxious, and sometimes

I give the silent treatment that pisses people off more.

Either way is irrational. i'm sorry.

I get sad and upset easily, I get annoyed easily…

so many things set me off in so many ways.

It’s ridiculous. i'm sorry again.

I am mainly focusing on anger. i'm not mad. i just not in a mood.

Because anger is what I lash out on people for.

And it is usually for something insignificant.

I will never forget that. That tears me apart.

I am loosing my best friend over it… because hanging out with me is too complicated

because I have so many mood swings, she feels she can never win with me.

This is serious, and I really need to work on it. slowly clearing away and I have made a real effort to be less moody, with at least measurable results.

I think that the people around me sufffer more for my moods than i do. I hope that toning them down could help me be more rational or at least more patient with people I love.

hari ni best !!!

2010-10-17T05:18:00.000-07:00

buat pertama kali

kami buka bisnes...hehe

kt piala konjen !! oyeah

pg2 lg ktorg da siap2..

target arini..oh bkn piala kontjen itu..

muhahahha..target arinie nak dpt untung..

wuuuu..money2..

brg yg nak dijual..sandwich, jambu asam boi, n kemas2 brg

n pastu ktorg sampai awal gak la

p cop tmpt

kate org..kne p awal2 pagi rezeki masyuk !!

mula2 jual..malu2..sipu2..hahahha..nak letak straw pon ketaq..n potong buah..muhahha

hahahha semesti begitu..sbb ktorg mmg untng besar hari ni..

sume brg ktorg larisssssssssss

sandwich menjadi permintaan rmai

xsangka..hehhee

thanks pembeli2..hahha..sbb korg kami dpt untung..muahhaha

n kepada pembeli yg terpaksa n suka rela thanks..

n ade gak yg buat2 xnmpk gerai ktorg..xpe xkesah..taw korg malu kan.kan.

n ktorg rase nak berjualan lg thn depan..ade bran??

tahun depan menu lg mantoppp!! hehe

pastu dapat gak ak masuk piala konjen

thn nie

wlpn xdpt maen ngan team sendrik

jd reserve pon oke la team org laen..horray !!!!

ak men 2 game je, tu pon half2 je...heheh

asl bg penuhkan name dah la...wakakakka...pdhal xpndai men..muhahaha..

da la kaki i cam ape..practice oke je

tetibe time perlawanan mmg la..ak neh mmg xley tgk org rmai jd gabra...kaki pn lembik sepak ..tgn lak gedik2..org men futsal la..tendang !!!

1st game da kena kad kuning mmg sentap ahh..malu n xde mood da..nsb farah ade..hehehhee

hahahhaha

wlpn 3 team je maen..huahua..

xpe la...team LALALA menang !!! dapat gold medal !!

horray!!! amy sokong korg !! korg mmg hebat

nyawa team LALALA..iela penyumbat goal terbaek..hehe..n fara juga wlpn demam gagah juge maen..bgs2...ummi, liza, intan, iha, n me...

bgs2...

oo..skank ujan diluar..

rs ngantuk n penat ..dr pg hari bgn

penat ke maen??

hahah penat jerit kott..ak mmg lepas laku kalo bab jerit2 neh

bg sokongan la sgt kan..hahhaha..sakit tekak da skank..aumm2

waaarghhh!! ngantuk nyehhh!

tido dluu

ne,annyeong jumuseyo!! unni, oppa !!

Dont turn around and ignore it.

2010-10-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

one day. if i joined GPM* dreaming*...charity work.

i really want to go there.

most of us are so blessed

WELL DO KNOW WHICH PEOPLE GOD KEEPS CLOSE TO HIM ?
......
....
POOR NEEDY UNTOUCHABLES....PEOPLE IN PAIN
IF U WANT TO TOUCH GOD
TOUCH THESE PEOPLE FIRST ........help them ... the needy
and respect humanity
these pics are crying out with pain ..........UNBELIEVABLE PICS
WE ALL JUST DONT WANT TO SEE THEM BUT HOW CAN WE RUN AWAY FROM REALITY , TRUTH ????????

think about the discrimination in the world, the harsh site of the world and that is a sight I dont often see.

http://www.youtube.com/verify_age?next_url=http://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3Dfytv7aVs_Og

tade keje huh!

2010-10-12T07:07:00.000-07:00

working as a doctor

never a clear one, has blurred even more

we all around with variety characters of human/patients

creating quite a stressful set of circumstances.

And I know that there's a tendency to lose control of one's temper from time to time.

when busy hospital settings, that can sometimes lead to unprofessional behavior.

doctors are human too.

but, when one of patient's family give us advice

we become more embarrassing

he said ," dun be mad doctor, u're facing a lot of people

different character, religion and style.

just be professional. dun be stress. u stress, i'll be more stress. u happy, i'll cure faster look ur smile"

nice one !

dun be silly

2010-10-12T05:30:00.000-07:00

last night. i hv chatting wif my old fren, just called him MAMAT..hahaha

mamat: salam mi. wat pe?

amyemyla: wslm.haa ko..knape?

mamat: xde la.saje rindu awek lame.

amyemyla: ngeks mu , biler ms ak jd awek mu ntah.tlg sket eh!

mamat: dop eh.mu neh bekeng.sje je gura

amyemyla: tau doh mu gtu. nape weh? ak bz neh..muhahah

mamat: hoh.bz sgt ke nak exam??dopleh ke luangkan sket ms mu utk saem trsyg.

amyemyla: dop ah.ak nak tido la ngantuk mek. ye nape? de prob ke bro? tell me.

mamat: prob besar la

amyemyla: ok. pnjg ke dop? ngantuk la weh sok skoloh mu dakpe kje sendrik. ak sok nurse muka nak kne lempang tu sgt jaat bro !

mamat: alaa..kejap ahh weh. prob ngan gf ak laa.ssh ati ak wey

amyemyla: sian ak asek dgr mslh org je.hahaha.ok2.

amyemyla: nape ngan gf mu bro.ak tgk oke je. bkn mu kate nak kawen da ke?

mamat: ye la. ak dh p merisik da pun weh.ak igt nak merisik je, last2 mak n bpk die suh tunang terus beb. ko rase cmne?

amyemyla: so ape mslhnye..oke la tu.lg cepat lg bgs. ko igt bgs ke bwk ank dare org ke hulu ke hilir? tunang pastu kawen la. mmg ko nak kawen pun ngan die kan.green light tu wey.

mamat: ya mslh nye duet weh. parents die mintak banyok weh.ketaq lutut ak weh. ak stkat engineer degree.gaji dop banyok pung weh. gane neh?. ak xsangke diorg mntak banyak. ak byr kete bulan2 dekat separuh duet ak.rumah sewa ag. minyak kete.makan.dll

amyemyla: oo.sian ngat.brape diorg mntak weh?

mamat: mu teke?

amyemyla: ermm.market awek mu ak rs dlm rm10,000..hahahhha

mamat: cess.kalo stare tu skank gak ak kawen ngan die

mamat: parents die nok rm37,777.17 . nak jugok die letok 17 sen tu...ak dale bank dop sape rm10,000 pon weh.

amyemyla: wooooooo!!! mahal nye...market artis ke ape??

amyemyla: ape lg weh.gadai la umah mak mu ke ?or gadai evo mu la sengal? wakkakaka

mamat: xleh.evo bini 1st ak kot.penat ak wat balik dr moscow. gane weh? pinjam duet mu la owp mi?

amyemyla: hahhaha.banyak la mu pinjam ak.habuk leh ahh..ak bljr ag kot.parents die sgt mate duitan. mu dh discuss blum ngan tune mu? kalo btul tune mu syg ke mu.suh la die pujuk parents die.kate la byk kot duet nak pkai utk majlis lg.baju kawen,photographer...duet hantaran tu kalo kire nak wat mjlis tu sumer pkai duet.kalo xmo gak putus tune kan sng.byk ag girl baek2.

mamat: tuh la weh.ssh weyh.ak syg doh dekpun die.mslh btul.byk btul hlgn.

amyemyla: hurm.sumer mslh psti ade penyelesaian.mu g ah kecek bebaek.utk ms depan mu 2 org gok.dah elok2 mu dua org.byk lak mslh.kalo xpon. mu try la bhg2 ngan tune mu..xpon wat pinjaman. kalo die xmo gak, ssh la kan.dah nmpk ngat anak beranak mate duetan .opss

mamat: ak pon harap gtu weh.tp ak kan laki.dok kang la ak nak kabo gtu.xmacho la.ego kan.

amyemyla: ego la sgt.apecer cter ke ape?

mamat: ak knal mu gane.mu baek.mu je saem hok leh ak cter. tu la mi, mu ler dekpun dlu reject ak ngat.

amyemyla: hahah.nsb baek.

td ptg.chatting lg.

mamat: mi..

amyemyla: hoh.gapo?

mamat: ak dh discuss td pagi

mamat: ak p umah parents die.n discuss pasal tu.

mamat: parents die kate, duet tu pon utk byr diorg nye majlis.majlis kan kt umah pompuan. diorg siap nak tempah hotel lg weh.

amyemyla: woh.glemer ngat.gempak ah kawen mu.anok menteri mane mu pinang neh?

amyemyla: doh mu gane?

mamat: ak dop tau la.ak terkelu weh.nak kate gane ag.

mamat: ak akn usaha gak le gane2 pon. =(

amyemyla: hurm.ak pon xley nak kate ape. mu try la cr tender bsr2 sket.kaut untung byk2.wat byk2 contract. kumpul money ,makan ikan kerink. hahahha.

mamat: tu la.tobak makan ikan krg ak pah nie.damn!

amyemyla: aiyo gf mu.sgt beruntung.xpe la.byk hlgn mu eh.smoge mu bhgie je la. ak hrp mu dpt kumpul duet tuh weh.

amyemyla: duet ngelang nanty kan kt hotel.mu kutip banyok.hahahha

mamat: tuh ah weh.

amyemyla:org kate cinta tu buta. tp mu, cinta tu buat mu bodoh. hahahha

mamat: laser u nyahh! hahahha.

amyemyla: hahahha.xpe, ak rs mu leh nye. simpan duet tu slow2.xkan kejam sgt family mentua mu tu nnty.mu kn akn jd family diorg gak nnty. ntah2 die sje je nak suh mu simpan duet dlu. ak hrp mu dua org bhgia.okep. k la weh.nak tgk tv.wslm.

monster 2

2010-10-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

disebabkan malam ni pon xde plan

so aku akan ikut sapa aja yang ajak n ke mana saja diorg pegi.

nampak sgt tahap kebosanan itu meluap2

malam ni diorg p makan kerang rebus

yummy ~~!! yarippppa !!

ak xmakan.ak xske kerang.sebab dia ade ta**.

so ak tgk je lah diorg makan

then ak tempah jagung manis pedas 2

besaq nye jagung.

kamu ingat dak medic

makan mende berkhasiat je??

oh tidak..mereka sgt monster.

mereka suka benda yang pelik

dan suka mencuba.mereka adalah monster.aqilah.ema n wawa.

medan syurga makanan exotic

hahahha ye ke.

makan macam jenis kerang

kerang batu

kepah

kerang warna hijau

kerang kulit die cam daun kunyit * yang cam daun tu..adalah kulit kerang itu..bkn daun ok!!

giler geli nak makan, isi cam umang2 siyesly*

.....

BUt ..i still

it's holidays

2010-10-10T04:04:00.000-07:00

selesai dermatology dept..

my first time dapat dokter penguji yang xkiller.

he is a nice man. sangat mesra student.

walaupun kami terpakse masuk 2 kali exam

but he gv us a good point too.

n tomorrow kami masuk radiology department

heaven !! stase tirah baring.sampai xtaw nak buat ape mungkin

sebab kebosanan kate senior.

hari ni cuti.

i hv no plan.

semalam kami p shopping kt petisah.

macam biasa pompuan.

beli sumer stock simpan kain2 chantek2 nak wat baju kurung baru kt mesia.

dan xsaba nak balik mesia nak p jahit sumer baju2 itu.

dan habis jugak duet merah2 kuar dari dompet ak.sampai nipis.

hari ni, ak duduk rumah je.takot nak keluar lagi.lagi abes duet.

tadi pagi ke pasar.masak tomyam.tapi kurang best.

=.=* tapi oke la.lauk sampai petang.hahahha.

dari pagi sampai petang, kami mengadap YES TV je.

dr td tgk my fav The Rules of Engagement ,American Next Top MOdel and Britian's Next Top Model.huh.kinda bored.but still dunno wut to do. it so hot outside.i rather choose stay at home.

dari tadi makan,tgk TV, makan lagi, tgk TV. makan.

diz entry hv no point.don't waste ur time.

another life

2010-10-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure why -- if you see someone in a wheel chair, you don't automatically say something like, "So, how long since you were able to walk?"
n when u see patients diagnose wif Morbus Hansen ( kusta, penyakit lepra)we don't automatically say something / weird question because they're all shy.Being abandoned by families, friends and people.12 years old patients with morbus hansen could give a sweet smile while riding her paddles, because deformity n ulcer set in. poor her.

.it was taking one and half hour to Si Canang 's Hospital..hospital for leper's patients there is a quiet place far from rapid pace.
i can't imagine how they live in very very poor condition n uncomfortable like that.Does such place really exist?

yea..it was exist.it was so poor. a long time ago, leper's patient was placed in a place, or called an island for leper.

Leprosy is not a disease only of the poor, it also affect anybody who have low immune system. N now..leprosy could cured. WHO give them MDT drugs for free.

Leprosy, if cured in time, before the nerves are damaged and sensitivity is lost, does not produce any deformity. But unfortunately, when diagnosis is late, particularly in the villages where health-education is poor and medical facilities missing, then deformity and ulcers set in.
until now, they still being a abandoned people.People throw them away far from them.
Simultaneously we experienced a lot of difficulties in getting a place, in the existing hospitals, deformed patients, old beggars, lonely patients. For this purpose we thought of a small hospice were abandoned people could finish their life in peace.Another transformation was taking place inside myself.It is true leprosy is contagious, but it is much less contagious than tuberculosis or hepatitis.It is true that, till fifty years ago, there was no cure; but for other diseases too there are no cure, like tumors.Then, why only leprosy patients had always been segregated?We are all afraid of death.We do not want to see death.So, without thinking, unconsciously, by instinct we run away from death, we chase away its image.No use in telling that this deformed person is cured, is bacteriologically negative, is no more contagious, is no more a “leper”.What we fear is death. The leprosy patients are social victims of our fear of death.

eUww

2010-10-05T05:06:00.000-07:00

ak benci binatang yang bernama cicak.

cicak adalah sjnr binatang yang melekat dengan kuat

badan yang amat geli..

suke berak merata2..

ekor ske putus merata2..

ak pernah ade penglmn buruk dgn cicak,

ak benci cicak,

pernah dlu die masuk dalam bekas air ak yg ak plg syg..

baru beli lak tuh..

bersenang lenang lak die berenang2 dalam bekas tu

sbb xley kuar

padan muka..

eii geli btul!!

ak trus xpakai bekas air tuh..

n letak clorox dekat sebulan

smpai ak lupe sbb ape ak letak clorox dalam bekas air tu

n ak wat bekas letak pensel je pastu.

.xsanggup ak nk gne biler trigt cicak tu biru berenang2 dlm tu

..eiiyrakkk!!

ms sekolah dlu..

ak selalu gantung tudung kt paku letak kt dinding lps iron

suatu pagi ak pakai tudung tuh

nak p skolah

cepat2..lepas tepek bedak johnson&johnson..

pkai tdg..

ak trus naik kete.

smpai kt skolah..tetibe ms nak masuk kelas

ak rs ade bende gerak2 kat ats kepala ak

muka ka da biru da

apeke otak ak jd hernia terkuar

hahaha pastu stop..then gerak lagi.

.kali nie lebh hebat cam sesuatu terikat n mau keluar

ak dgn serta merta. lari kt tepi kelas..pastikan xde org

n buka tdg

yarkkkkkkk!!!

keluarla cicak yang dah hypoxia biruu

dr tudung ak.....wlpn ak geli ak pkai gk tdg tu smpai ptg..

balik ak trus minta mak ak beli tdg baruu

geli syialllll !!! ak xske cicak

pengalaman plg ngeri

ms ak drjh berapa ntah

ak dak bandar turun ke kg * acehh poyo*

ak tgk nenek ak letak susu getah kt 1 talam

ak pn xtaw kenapa.

pastu pagi sok

ak tgk byk cicak bergelimpangan dlm talam tu

ak tgk dekat2 sbb best tgk cicak tu berusaha lepaskan dri

tetibe adek ak dtg dgn besikal roda tiganya..

pang die langgar talam tu

talam tu terpelanting kena kat betis ak

eiiiiyrakkkk!!!!

ak xley bygkan cicak2 tu bergerak2...yaaaa

ak nanges la..

lame gak nenek ak nk lepaskan cicak n gam tu

tu la nenek ..nak tangkap cicak..betis cucu lak kne

kesian ak..smpai skank ak fobia tgk cicak

ak rs nak muntah !!

n lepas tu

ak benci cicak

ak akn selalu ikut misi pak sedara ak

bunuh cicak ms malam jumaat

ak tukang sorak..n tlg fokuskan di mana cicak

" hah CIk kat ctu ade cicak jijik.bunuh dia "

misi kt rumah nenek ak..sarang cicak ak rs.

Cik ak sedia lastik hebatnye ciptaan die sendrik

dengan getah..powernye..

bontot lastik skali kne terpelanting cicak jatuh.

sekali lastik

cicak tuh jatuh..sumer lari apb tgk

ekor cicak putus..

HAHAHHAHAHA...

kejam itu pasti.

n skank>..................

sdg2 ak syok2 duk study.

dia maen sorok2 lak ngan ak ehhh

mula2 tepi meja..

pastu makin dekat...

makin hampir lg..haaaa ya

dia menuju ke mug nescafe ak yg bru je ak buat td

cess!!! igt ak buat air tu utk ko ke?

almost here

2010-10-02T19:46:00.000-07:00

You passed so suddenly,
The life drained out of you,
Now it almost 13 years,
I don't understand why you left,
Now you're in a world with no pain and sorrow,
So I guess understand,

God love u more,
I'm still gonna miss you every day,
More and more I need you here with me,
Helping me through life step by step,
I can still feel you all around me,
Smiling and crying at everything I do,
Days weeks months go by tears dry and fall,
I see you in everything around me,
When the next year comes rolling past,
Your still gone forever,
When I think about memories past,
I believe your looking on me,
To keep me in line,
You always tried to keep me out of trouble,
I'll never forget,

never forget ur advice,

ur will wanna me be a better person like yours,

although it is not a dream of mine

fulfill ur wishes

i could make it true bcoz of u,

good daughter to mum,

never forget u papa.

u tell me be good example to my sis n bro

how u shattered us, and when our heart cries.

n u always tell me dat u are really mean to us,

n how much u care about us.

always remind us, remember,you always have your dad standing beside you.

but now u're gone, gone forever.

i always pray for u, get peace in there.

P.S.I miss you dad. no one could replace u. u're my hero.

ɐpoɹ ɯɐɔɐɯ dnpıɥ

2010-10-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

hidup macam roda

eh??..kadang kita kat bawah.kadang kita kat atas.

macamana pon hidup adalah sementara .itu adalah pinjaman Allah SWT semata-mata.

bagaimana kita mahu mencorak hidup kita dan sebagai bekalan kita dekat akhirat nanti.

macam dengar luahan kawan-kawan. mungkin ak tempat diorang luahan rahsia hati. sebab mungkin ak pendengar yang baik.gossiping.

don't judge da book by it's cover. bak kata kawan ak.walaupun die cmtu jahil tntg agama tp die xwat perkara xbaek( cth nye..wlpn ak free hair, ak xwat bende xbaek)

ak pun kenal kawan ak.i believe them. kalo btul die pernah wat salah. perbaiki la diri pada yang lebih baik.jangan buat sesuatu yang merugikan diri dan keluarga.sesuatu tidakkan terjadi kalo kita pandai jaga diri dan insiatif dri utuk elakkan sesuatu.sesuatu tu xkan terjadi kalo kita xbiar org Ketiga lebih menguasai.kadang ak beruntung ak belajar kat sini. dulu ak berada kat zone selesa. mana ak xmo tambah ape yang ak tahu dan sekarang ak belajar sket2, i'm learned smthg about life and understand about our religion and responsibilities. tapi ak xreti bagi nasihat. die da dewasa die pandai pikir sendri apa yang terbaik untuk diri die.apa yang betul dan apa yang salah. apa yang yang xpatut buat dan apa yang patut buat. sapalah ak nak nasihatkan orang. so i hv no comments. i'm just a good listener.

cter ak lg best! ye ke

midtest macam hancor. bace lupa.baru bace lupa.yang lame2 lupe juga.

ak mmg manusia pelupa.

so post test kne buat bebaek.tp...

dan sekarang ak masih xsedar2. post test la plak.

otak macam masih kosong.

masa time nak exam.pandai je mata ak ngantuk la.tido awal takut xcukup rest.

dah abes exam.gedik2 lak.neh jam 2 pon xtidor lg.layan INvicible youth sekepam.pastu cter ape ntah tangkap leleh btul cter melayu romantika bombastika bosannn.

aaaaa...insomnia!!

jum paksa diri untuk tidur. saya perlu tidor.

butterfly

2010-10-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

don't waste your time

If life is a waste of time and time is a waste of life, lets all get wasted and have the time of our lives

We are like butterflies who flutter for a day and think it is forever.

How does one become a butterfly?" girl asked pensively.

"You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar"

The butterfly counts not months but moments, And has time enough.

their life is short. it used n shared their look to others.fly everywhere.

I want the experience of the butterfly.

love stood still

2010-09-30T05:29:00.000-07:00

menci btul..asl nak dekat exam

tgn selalu gedik nak mnaip kt blog..

asal nak dekat exam..entry penuh je.

haiya !

ms duk lepak2 di dept kulkel ( dermatology)

sbb dh xde patients n xde kegiatan lgsg arinie.

so kami mcm biase la buka round table la.

gossiping,storying,talking nonsense..hahahha

mcm biasa kalo pompuan da berkumpul sekapla sumer.

n tajuk2 yg paling xley blah adalah jodoh.

memang dah cukup dewasa kitorang cakap pasal hal2 camnie sekarang.

n ramai la bg pendapat n komen.n ade pula nak buka agensi cari jodoh.mentang2 die dah kawen kan.kan.hahahha. ade pula yang nak tlg promote teman2 kpd teman nya.cakap sumer kawan2 mereka da keje da kawen.tp diorg ckp..girl2 kt medic ssh nak laku.sbb sumer ckp..ughh! dak medic eh? doctor eh? xpe la ak cr cekgu...hahha.adei..pupus la doctor2 cantek.kami pun manusia juga. * ayt siti* HEHE

jodoh. satu perkataan yang memang ak nak elakkan dengar untuk masa neh.i'm not ready yet.

dan ramai duk tanya ak, amy biler lg? haiya, calon pon xde .ape kebendenye biler lg.tipu la xde calon.msti ade kan.kan.seyesly xtipu.stakat neh,mmg xde org brkenan kat ak, n mmg xde lg yg ak berkenan.n entahkan org pun xberkenan kat ak.ape ke kamu cerewet?.tipu xcerewet.mstila cerewet nak cari utk seumur idup kan.bkn one night stand muhahaha.xde ke ske kt org atau org ske? tipu la ckp xde kan.tp kalo stkat suke je xsemestinya seyes sampai nak kawen.xseyes tuh xkonfirm lg.so xberani buat spekulasi tentang itu. so xpernah ade org seyes dgn ak.so buat ape ak nak pkir lg seyes. sbb sumer org leh ckp,rmai yg cakap kat ak "ak ske ko"" ak ske tgk ko" " i like u", "saya suka awak",tp jrg ade org ckp, " ak syg ko n nak kawen ngan ko/ saya sayang awak n nak kawen dgn awak".hahaha.

xmo pkir lg or cmne?..bkn xpkir,tipu la kate xpkir.kawen mmg best.tp bkn masenye lg.

lgpun skank ssh nak cr ikut citarasa.hahaha.igt senang ke.men2 tepuh2 bahu je ke.kan.kan.

so biler kamu nak kawen nye?..erm.28 bleh? tua ke?nnty xrase cm andartu ke?hahaha.ha'ah kesian gak mummy i nnty igt anak die xlaku2.xpe i kasi mummy i plih kalo die xsaba sgt nak dpt menantu.hahaha.lgpun ak rasa ms tu.financial da stabil.pikiran da sket matang.lgpn byk lg xtercapai hasrat ak.dah kawen byk tggjwb.byk hal kne pkir.skank dri sendri pun blum tntu terjaga.pas kawen kne jaga dri lg.org lain lg.pastu igt nak cari laki yg ikut ak.hahha.bkn ak ikut die.so leh la duk dekat ngan umah mak ak je.sng.muhaha.bajet.

tapi kitorang masih kat sini.angkat beg cam dak skolah. pikiran entah kemana.biler nak mature?

financial ktorang pun tunggang langgang.biler nak menabung?simpan duet untuk kawen? beli kete ke? ohh..lambat lagi mungkin.

banyak rupanya nak pkir semakin meningkat dewasa neh.kan sng masa kanak2 dlu.pkir nak maen je.tgk tv.makan.tidor, p skolah. tuh pun selalu ngamuk2 xmo p skolah. biler trigt ms dolu2.sgt best. xyah pkir byk2 cmnie.kalo selalu pkir cmtu.xde perkembangan la idup asek takat tu jek kan. different people different reasons. so i have to live happily ever after, n how i create or plan it by myself.wlpn kita tahu, kita hanya dapat merancang tuhan yang menentukan segalanya.

life is hard ;its harder if u're stupid

2010-09-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

ya btul...idup kt oversea bknnya best

xbest lgsg..asek pkir nak balik..

n skali nak balik punye susah wlpn nak balik kt negara sendrik

kne buat ERP (exit re-entry permit) ..n bla2

bayar situ sinin...kt emigresen..corruption lg (opsss)

bayar tiket flight lg.

kadang2 malas nak balek..kan best de pintu doraemon..xyah byk abes duet balik

eh balik tetiap mase..muhhehe..

wlpn baru balik mesia aritu

tp still rs xpuas lagi..seyesly..'

nak balik lg

hari2 kt dept dermatology sgt busan...

mggu depan da exam...

da la exam awal..cmne nak cr patient utk post-test

waaaaaaaaa..nak menjerit kat kawasa rumah ak neh..

" sapa ade penyakit kulit?? ibu2,, bapak2..anak2???"

" meh sni nak sape ade penyakit kulit....kami dokter mude comey2..mau bg pengobatan free..haa rugi2 xmo" !! haiya

sok bermula la rutin kami..utk cr patients..mintak2 de la patients yg sporting yg mau jd bahan ujian..hek2

Let's face it

2010-09-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

So what is the best way to study?

Study guides were new to me and useful because they pulled out key concepts that may not have been apparent from readings and lectures. Moreover, someone else had done the job of summarizing topics for me. Frequently, these areas were emphasized on exams. Let's face it, at the end of the day, we are all interested in passing tests and doing well on the boards. So in addition to increasing your overall medical knowledge, you must also be successful in taking tests.

Reviewing old exams can help you synthesize information and give you a sense of a course director's style in test writing. I encourage you to take as many practice tests as possible. Most people will tell you that this is a great way to review, and it forces you to go back and relearn areas of weakness. Getting a test question wrong is helpful. We have all heard that people learn from mistakes, and this is certainly true when answering practice questions. The exams also help give you a sense of how well you know a topic, especially if you are juggling several courses simultaneously.

The juggling part brings up another point. Time management is essential, and it's important to have a schedule, even if it's just a general guide that helps you stay on target. Food, exercise, and breaks are needed to maintain your own sanity. While some activities may need to be sacrificed over the weekend before a Monday exam, keeping in touch with the rest of the world and taking some time off may help reset your enthusiasm for studying.

So, be realistic. Understand your limits. Don't forget to sleep. And use your friends as resources!

meanwhile, all thing that i have studied in theory year.i hv loss almost the memories.i need to review and now force myself study from the basic.but in my clinical year.time always running out. i get more time for sleep because of tiredness. how could i manage my time?

ermm

2010-09-25T19:05:00.000-07:00

haha. saje gedik mahu emo padahal bende neh small matter je beb.

neh mls jd glemer neh.
td tgh2 ak cek2 email,fb,blog,formspring

n formspring slalu je ade msg yg ak xmo tayang..smada msg mengarot..ntah ape2..n satu lg mengata ak..neh cth nye
ade org xpuas hati

kesian

penakott..mulut kt jamban...

pegi mampus menyusahkan org je.

bodo nye org...

ak pon xpaham ape yg ak buat smpai die xpuas hati

n skali lg..ak nk igtkan ! ini blog..account ak..email ak...

n sumer entri pon ak yg tulih

so ko xde hak nak komen2 buruk2 pasal ak

ske ati la blog ak..xkan ak nak cter pasal ko !!

damn!!! ak x suh pon ko bce oke..

xyah nak mbazir ms bce blog ak la..

ak xde pakse pon oke ! syialll nye org...

dlu kt skolah xpernah bljr adap sopan ke hape..!

@#$%^&*()@#$%^&*( tuuutttutuuuuttt

baek ak xyah ckp pape

nnty ak setaraf lak ngan ko kan

tgk ak lak emo pepagi neh kan..

xtgk lg tanduk raksasa keluar dr dahi ak

kesian kt org tu kan...

asek makan ati je..

ke pernah kne rejek kt ak ke ape smpai dendam kesima??

da la penakot...

atau ko adalah pompuan...yg hasad dengki membuak2 xley org lebih dr ko.

.ak pon xpaham asl la ade org dengki n jeles ngan ak.

.xbaek ade hasad dengki kt org..wlpn org tu cantek,bijak ,pandai, baek, comel, cute, etc mcm ak..muhahhahahha

..dah2..kang ade plak msg riak kan...

n pd org tu..kalo ko trbace neh ak mintak maaf la kalo ak de slh kt ko slame neh

xyah la ko nak anto msg mengarot2 lg kat ak

n sedar la kelemahan dri n jgn tgk kelemahan org lain je...

anda patut membace lebih byk..:

Hadis riwayat Abu Hurairah ra. Bahwa Rasulullah saw. bersabda:

"Hindarilah oleh kamu sekalian berburuk sangka kerana buruk sangka adalah ucapan yang paling dusta. Janganlah kamu sekalian saling memata-matai yang lain, janganlah saling mencari-cari aib yang lain, janganlah kamu saling bersaing (kemegahan dunia), janganlah kamu saling mendengki dan janganlah kamu saling membenci dan janganlah kamu saling bermusuhan tetapi jadilah hamba-hamba Allah yang bersaudara"

Hadis dalam kitab Sahih Muslim [Bahasa Arab saja]: 4646

sebab diorang ni suka membuka keaiban orang ni sebab mengejar dunia..
lupe pada diri sendiri.. ini la segelintir masyarakat kita sekarang nih..
Apakah kita berasa sangat suci sehingga tidak pernah melakukan dosa di belakang manusia atau diri kita ini penuh dengan dosa rahsia? Misalnya di saat kita seorang diri melayari internet dan tidak ada mata lain yang melihat, apakah kita sudah melepasi batas penglihatan yang diizinkan Allah? Bagaimana dengan prasangka buruk dalam hati kita yang telah dilemparkan kepada sekian banyak manusia lain tanpa pengetahuan mereka? Bagaimana pula dengan perbuatan-perbuatan kita tatkala berseorangan? Astaghfirullahalaziim, banyak sangat dosa kita!

Firman Allah:

"...Dan janganlah kamu mendekati perbuatan-perbuatan yang keji, baik yang nampak di antaranya maupun yang tersembunyi..." (Surah Al-An'am:151)

Allah Maha Penyayang dan Dia tahu betapa lemahnya kita. Lalu Dia menutup keaiban-keaiban kita sehingga kita mampu berjalan di tengah-tengah manusia tanpa rasa malu, sekalipun kita telah melakukan segunung dosa di belakang mereka. Namun, adalah sesuatu yang sangat takabur jika dengan Allah pun kita tidak berasa malu. Bukankah Allah mengetahui apa yang tidak diketahui oleh manusia lain tentang diri kita? Maka, setiap kali kita ingin melakukan dosa di belakang manusia, ingatlah bahawa ada Allah yang lebih patut kita rasa malu kepadaNya berbanding manusia.

Mengapa? Kerana di akhirat kelak bukan manusia yang akan menghitung amalan kita. Allah yang paling tahu tentang diri kita dan Dia jugalah yang akan menghitung amalan kita. Hanya dengan rahmatNya kita akan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga. Kalau kita merasakan lindungan Allah ke atas keaiban kita itu adalah satu zon selesa, maka kita silap. Boleh jadi keaiban yang Allah tutup sementara atas muka bumi ini akan dibukakan kepada seluruh umat manusia di akhirat kelak jika kita tak benar-benar bertaubat kepadaNya.

Kadang-kadang kita suka mencanangkan dosa orang lain, sekalipun dosa tersebut tidak diceritakannya kepada orang lain, hanya kepada kita. Ingatlah akan sebuah hadith:

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. berkata:

"...Dan sesiapa yang menutup keaiban seorang muslim maka Allah ta'ala akan menutup keaibannya di dunia dan di akhirat. Dan Allah Ta'ala akan sentiasa menolong seorang hamba selama ia menolong saudaranya..." (HR Muslim)

OnE step At a tYmE

new year blast

wutttt??????????

point of no return

dia.mereka.saya.

be thankful ^_^

what change u?

stupido loser kiddy

power passenger passage

pose lagik ~~!

mashed potatoes~~~

best wishes

life goes on

path that i have chosen

pampering day

happy besday Mak !!

hibernate

moody =.=

eat

xXXXxxxXXxxx choose??

homesickoo~~!

i miss him so much

0oo0

^_^~

finally

motivation

butterfly

^_^~

i'm gonna puke

need more holidays

rewards

libur???

tik tok tik tok

take it or leave it

sighing =.=*

bye 2010

^__________^

peads 4

peads 3

peads 2

right here in my heart

T_T

penat sgt ke?

blunder

peads weee=.=*

=.=*

tolongla menjauh

The worth of character.

The value of time.

fiuhhh=.=*

never turn back

stupido loser

radiology dept

=.=*

♥||ıʇs pooʇs ǝʌo|☻

No difference

why.

find some peace deep down in my soul *thanks God dat was true kind-hearted in me*teheehee

beauty is pain

out of sudden

hari ni best !!!

ne,annyeong jumuseyo!! unni, oppa !!

Dont turn around and ignore it.

tade keje huh!

dun be silly

monster 2

it's holidays

another life

eUww

almost here

ɐpoɹ ɯɐɔɐɯ dnpıɥ

butterfly

love stood still

life is hard ;its harder if u're stupid

Let's face it

ermm

find some peace deep down in my soul thanks God dat was true kind-hearted in meteheehee